LIFE IS FRAGILE

Life is so fragile.
anything could happen,
anything could take away life.
just ANYTHING.

Wonder how a person feel,
when death is so near to them.
fear? peace? sad?
I dislike it
when death makes lovers apart.
I dislike it
when death makes families apart.

However,
DEATH
is expected,
ain't it?
it's a life cycle.

no matter how unacceptable it is,
death is expected,
thus,
should be accepted.
with a peaceful heart?
i'm not sure.
for more or less,
it's a pain to lose.

CANCER
why this terminology?
why this cause?
why must it comes near to the people around me?
why must i know it almost every time when my exam is near?
why must all my beloved suffer from it?
WHY?
i wonder why.

GOD,
please heal,
please cut it off,
make it stop.
cut the root.
I humbly pray.
Amen.

永不消失的彩虹

请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以後
请留给我
慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵着我的那种温柔


请不要关掉我的镜头
不要熄灭我的以後
还给黑夜
永不消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯我的双手
你能感受我的颤抖


只有你懂
我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

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Easter Trip 2009, with brother

1 April 2009- 4 April 2009

Barcelona

- a very nice but dangerous place.
-Gaudi's every master-piece are uniquely inspired by nature.
-Seafood paella, Black squid paella, Tapas, Sangria-- La Fonda (gotta queue up at7:45pm)
-Sangria before meal, black squid paella makes me throw up. First time ever, i felt so drunk.
-Park Guell , American Next Top Model finale stage.
-Spain Village, get in for free!! (using the trick taught by the person at Information Centre)




4April 2009- 7 April
Milan
-nice place... just me n bro... n i enjoy the time alot..i'm lucky to have a good bro like him n i love him very very much... :)
-had some typical Italian food... very exp, very small portion... burger king fed us full...
-we explored the place together. not really many places to visit, yet, it's still worth going..as long as somebody u're comfortable with.. (cuz i'm not really easy to get along with ppl, and others don't seem easy to get along with me... just dunno why... so yea.. i could hardly go out with ppl which i dun feel comfortable. once i tot of i need to spend lotsa energy entertaining ppl, it'll just gets my nerves off!! ended up, unhappy)--- well, sorry. like it or not, this is me..
-went to CIMETERO... which is a famous cemetry in MILAN.. was astonished by the delicated, masterpiece of carves...








7April-8April
-because of the flight delay in Milan, we missed our last train to go back to Hull. (perhaps we could have catched the train, we tried to sit at the last second row so that we could get down the flight as soon as it arrives the airport.. who knows, the back door doesn't open. well fine, we might still able to make it... IF, and only IF... they did not use the foreign passport holders immigration counter for EU citizens passport holder... )
-we had our dinner at Manchester's China Town... we were very satisfied with the food and services provided. GBP12 for 2 big portion of dishes, beef that we could barely finish it..
-put up a night at JK's place.
-went to a place to have dim sum before we go to the train station.
-it might seems hard to believe, but.. believe it.. : me n my bro, we were at the right platform for the train heading to Hull. Just a few steps forward, then we can get the train back to Hull... but we were standing there, wondering why they still dun open the door for the other coach but only the front coaches. thinking that it was for First Class passengers. by the time we figure out that it was actually the coach that we should get up, the door was closed, and the train left..
we hafta wait for another hour.. tat was so... ridiculous for us..

8April- 12 April
-life was happy, joyful
-watch heroes, have food together.. it always feel good to have somebody to have food with you.. feel very very blissful..
- when there's someone to talk with you about the drama... enjoy the food that you've made... it's really a blessing... such things cannot be taken for granted. cuz it's not easy to have a chance to have food peacefully with your own family member. it's a very very huge blessing that god's mercy and love had provided for. and i truly deeply grateful for what i have...
-bro was not feeling well for a few days, and i cooked porridge for him. and it feels good, when u have the CHANCE to take care of your own bro.. such chances is not easy... and when i have the chance to do so, i treasure it alot.. (i don't mean that i want my bro to be sick.. just that i feel luckly that i'm with him so that i was able to take care of him).

you're always my beloved bro..
these memories we have, i'll treasure it.
these are the memories you planted in me, sweet and happy one.
I hope i'd left the same kind of memories for you , too.

I LOVE YOU, MY BRO...

装傻

或许懂得装傻是好的....
笨一点的女人会更幸福一点...
但我总能看穿;
也憋不住气...

I miss my sister...
the old cute sister
who i knew
she loves me much
who will always share
her sadness and happiness with me
who needs me
to put her to bed everynight
who will always
listen to me
who can just easily
forgive me when i scold her
who loves to
stick with me
who used to
take the same food
and eat the same thing
as i did...


I've once told her
"Sis, can u stop growing?
I'm afraid that when i come back from Uk,
you'd changed alot...
I can't recognize you,
and you'll no longer need me... "

Still remember the every first time:

-when i hug my lil' sister
-when my lil' sister starts to sleep with me
-when my lil' sister starts to call me "jie jie"
-when my mom starts to fed her with baby food
-when she learn to take her first step
-when she first learn to take shower without any help
-when she took the baby bottle and fed me with the milk
-when her fingers were hurt
-when we came out with our sisterly song...
-when we quarrel
-when she knew that i'm about to leave to KL, pictures she drew for me
-when she wants to sleep at my bed, the notes she left for me
-when i first left her to study in KL, she tried to hold her tears so hard...
-when she starts to turn into a young lady, i was there with her
- and many other first time...

As time past,
people grow...
time will never stop,
things will never be the same..

My sister
is no longer the same old her...
she has her own way of doing things...
she no longer needs me...

I miss you,
Melissa...

I Love you