I had a dream

I dreamt of you last nite. I dreamt of meeting you at the train station. God knows how excited i felt in my dream. My heart beats so fast, just like the first time your lips were on mine. Tears dropped, it's the tear of joy. It was the sweetest dream after these 9 months. I missed you, so badly. I knew this dream is coming true, cuz i'll be seeing you in 10 days' time. I'm looking forward to it.

我不配

我究竟还能怎么样？ 我晓得，有些事，做错了，真得没办法重来。 不管你要怎么改，怎么擦，终究是铁一般的事实， 是你做错了，就连道歉也无济于事的错。 这么久以来，我真的很痛苦。 这一秒想通了，下一秒又自责。 有时真的为这错忏悔得头很疼，真得喘不过气。 但我真的希望，如果这算是一种惩罚， 我希望这惩罚能换我拥有你一辈子。 我有愧于你，但我没勇气承认。 我知道我不配拥有你，但我没不能没有你。 我知道我不好，但谢谢你爱我。 想要对你承认却不敢承认的错， 会不会有人可以明白？

random pics (june)

after the last paper on 2june 2009

12 pens i've used for my final exams.

he is a very good listener *hugs*

love you, 小狗狗

on the way home after the last paper.

big pink + yellow rose

for Actz

20 May 2009- 2 June 2009

I had been experiencing God's wonderful grace and love throughout the whole period of my final exam.

it was such a tough time, yet, God had never let me walk through it alone.

Just like what HE had promised, HE see me throught the seasons, covered me with HIS hands.

I looked to him, I wait on HIM.

Of course, there were time when i felt helpless and i cried my lung out, there were time i doubted, 'why am i still doing these??', and there were time when i felt that, giving up would be easier, at least it will not draw me to the point of insanity.

Mom was there. Indeed, she IS always there. telling me to look to our Almighty Abba Father. For He is a loving Father, my Shepherd, my Provider.

I can ask for strength, wisdom, power, knowledge and health.

when i call upon his name, he answered every single prayer i made. because, He thinks that the time was right. when i ask for HIS will to work in me, HE'll grant me the rest.

when i was so so lost, he pointed me to the bright way.

when i was very confused, he clear my doubts.

when i was very uncertain, not knowing what i was reading, not knowing whether my concept about certain topics were right, HE assigned people (property 2 and EU law lecturers, and Uncle Yinsoon for company law) to guide me, to assure me.

Dear Father God, i want to thank U.

Thank U for all the blessings.

thank U for all that U'd provided me with.

and most importantly, thank U, for you had given me a God-fearing mom, a mom who is and will always be there for me, telling me to look to you.

Thank U Father God, for U had given me a supportive parents, supporting me in all that i do. Thank U father God, for U had given me 2 lovely siblings, who loved me so much, and i love them alot.

Thank U Father God, for U had given me a heart that knows how to love my family.

Thank U Father God, for you had given me the man, my soulmate, who shares my laughters and tears, holding my hands through joys and hardships.

Thank U Father God, for U'd really blessed me abundantly.

p/s: i'll sing to YOU Lord, a hymn of love, for YOUR faithfulness to me. i'm carried in everlasting arms, YOU'll never let me go. THROUGH IT ALL.

05June 2009- 10 June2009

Sunday morning (6June2009), Amos brought me to Woksoever for buffet. this is my 1st plate of food. I ate some salmon, too!

The 2nd plate at Woksoever. dessert were coconut pudding, 西米露, and oranges. Not bad.. :) Thanks, didi..

The dinner of the day i arrived Hull, just the day Amos finished his last paper. this is pork wif 木耳 and 香菇. Very nice!

these 2 pics are the very very yummy chicken wing we baked... REALLY NICE!!

Summary of my trip to Hull:

- spent valuable time with my dearest bro. watch shows and series together, it's really good to have someone to talk about the thing tat u watch. angry together, scold the characters together, laugh together. 家族诞生 and Gossip Girl were the tv programmes that didi introduced me, and i introduced him the new HK series, Immegration Department.

- some of the nites, didi went to work. so i waited him at home, and he'll always give me a call when he finished working, while waiting for supper. :) when he's not around, i helped with the cleaning of his room and arranging sm of his stuff.

- didi gave me the 雪耳and 龙眼干, marinated pork rib, and i took his maggie.. hehe..i knew he loves his maggie very much, yet, he stil let me to have them.. thanks didi.. :)

- jie jie love you, didi.. muackz..