Right here waiting

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted,

all the times

That I thought would last

somehow

I hear the laughter,

I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' crazy

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

Oh,can't you see it baby

You've got me going crazy

I feel so lonely.
nobody to talk with in the middle of the night.
I know .. what i need is SPIRITUAL strenght.
It was because I'm thirsty,
and need to be fed with spiritual food.

However, I just don't know what to do.
Where to look for a church...
could anybody just bang into me and say...
"hey, let me bring you to church!"
God.. I'll be very thankful.

Hull Trip 1

Me in my new jersey, and my Classic Burger with Chips!
Zoom in of my Classic Burger

Amos with his chilli corn beef and nacho. Zoom in
Me, Amos and friends.

What would I say if I were to say a vow?

Actz, I think about you all day long.

and when I'm not near you,

all I think about is being near you.

And when you are near me,

I feel like I'm at peace with the whole world.

I know that I'll never have to ask God for anything,

'cause, as long as I have you in my life,

I got everything I ever wanted.

The only thing that I really wanna do is just

spend the rest of my life making you as happy as you've made me.

Because I love you, Actz.

I love you.

Newcastle Life photo 2

i love you 2!
what a cute and lovely image~~ hehe

13 Oct 2008, on the way home from uni.

Actz, I saw the guy wearing AJ !!! hehe~~

you can wear yours when you come here!!

view of lecture hall

this is the window of a house which i will pass by when i go to uni. there is a tree inside the house!! haha... can you see into the window? it's not a reflection but a real tree inside the house!

My bed, my doggy, and mirror in my room.

another view of my room, with desk.


doggy and my laptop bag, taken at Dubai airport.

It wasn't a good day, perhaps it should be. Money shouldn't have been the matter, and it shouldn't have messed up my day!!!!

MONEY!!!!!

I hate it... no.. not really.. if i hate it, i'll not be so unhappy with the fact that i have to spend it away!!! so.. basically, it's same logic as what people say... " i don't hate u... if i hate you, tat's mean i love and cares for you!"

WHY???? why do we need money to value the things we have? why do we need money to buy things? even though money can't buy everything, but without money, u can juz DIE!!!! cuz without money, no one will allow to live on this earth!!! even beggers need money!! even the poor needs money!~~~ everyone needs MONEY!!!! money is so important.. sigh~~

if-----
if money is so important, why can't christ be the same? mayb...human's nature.. we can only c the things and needs of now. future things... even prophets.... can't really see the things that are too far away.... wat more if... ETERNITY!

sigh... i dun understand.. why does a pack of rice can cost us GBP 20+.... why?? is it coated with gold? i just dun understand... please please please...

In fact, i've got a question... i just couldn't understand why. there was a story about a girl.

One day, the girl went to church and heard a message... about tithes and offering. The Rev. said :
when you take money too seriously, and care too much about money that you rather keep it to yourself and not offering it, then, you're taking money as BIGGER than GOD!". Money was given by God to us. Because of his grace, we have money to live. and when it comes to the time to return the money to God, and God only ask for the 10% money given to us to be returned, we should never doubt. Those are God's money and not ours. If we keep it to ourselves and not giving it back to God, it's just same as ROBBING God's money!!!! (How serious this offence is!)

another example given was... "If on Friday night, you rather attend your sibling's birthday party than knowingly absent from cell group, then you're taking your family as more IMPORTANT than GOD!"

well, the girl knew that taking money more serious than God is sinning against God. she knew this since very young. Somehow, she still take money as very very serious and personal. She tried to catch some loopholes which she can escape from giving tithes and offers. For example, seperating tithes from offers, or giving tithes in one goal and stop offering for a month. In fact, she knew that this doesn't please God. Nothing happens.

However, when she heard the sermon, she start to think deeply, and she decided to tithe 10% of the money given by her grandparents and uncle aunties. For that time, it can be said that, that was the very first time she did not think of escaping from her obligation to tithe and offer. She tithe, with all her heart. Praying that God will forgive her and will help her in the future, as she is going abroad to further her studies. And she believe with all her heart, with no doubts, that God will for sure, take care of all her needs. And, as it was told that when you tithe, you can challenge God even though it was told that we cannot challenge God. But in the sermon, it truly and clearly mentioned that, you can challenge God, when you tithe. God will provide you with the things you need.... and.. most importantly... PROVIDE YOU MORE THAN YOU ASK OR EXPECTED TO RECEIVE!!!! holding on this promise, she asked for God's blessing to be upon her when she goes abroad, and provide her with more than she expect.

She doubted now. Why? Why does she not only get nothing from her prayer, but also lose the things she has? If you answer that, because God doesn't exist, then you're wrong! TOTALLY WRONG! cuz she had in her life time experienced God's mercy and grace ! She had in her life time experience the TRUE AND LIVING GOD that she was so fearful of God! God was so real that she just couldn't believe that every prayer that she made, GOD ANSWERED!!!! but why this no longer happens? WHY?

2 of xxx TESTIMONIES:
1. she prayed that : "I want to follow my friends to Genting Highland for convention." God answered her prayer and let her mother allow her to go.
2. she prayed that : " I hope I can get the from sit in the flight!" God does not only answered her prayer but also... amazingly, and... miracle happens... she was invited to sit with the Capten of the flight and see them do the flight landing! Isn't this amazing?


Then why not God answer her prayer when she encounter problems now?

I wonder why, too.


P/S: no matter how doubtful I am, I'm grateful that God has given you in my life.
Love you, Actz!

I love this song!!
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=JUCGwiuV1x8


Man, I like this as well!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bInuMtpnlXU&NR=1

some pics about life in NEWCASTLE UPON TYNE (1)

My First Starbuck HOT MOCHA in Northumbria University (cuz i was 'fishing' during the EU law class at 2pm since my class start at 9am and i couldn't stand it. so, quickly grab this so that i wont fish again during Property 2 class.)

Tuesday morning, on my way to Uni.

Me and Janet waiting at Lloyds TSB.

(waited for 1+3hours to open an account but ended up with the name on the bank letter issued by the Uni was wrong!)

on my way to Lloyds TSB

ACTZ, I MISS YOU!

just wanna shout as loud as i could!

i really miss you!

misses you so much so much!!

ACTZ, I MISS YOU!

i miss the time when we were together at KL,

i miss the time when we always go shopping together,

crossing the fingers tightly,

walking happily together,

watching movie together.

i miss that every morning seeing your face,

your smile lightens up my everyday.

holding hands we go uni ,

from SPB tower, to Jalan Kasah, and Desa Kiara.

everyday are so precious to me.

i miss the time when i wait for you to finish your class,

coming out and your eyes are on me,

letting me know that i'm the only one,

the only girl that you're looking forward to see.

i miss the time when i finish class,

you're there waiting for me,

walking towards you make me feel that i'm lonely;

knowing that someone is willing to be there for me.

i miss the time when i was sad,

your shoulder will never quit from its task,

holding me tightly in your arms,

ensuring me that i can rely on you.

i miss the time when i was happy,

you are always there waiting me to share;

seeing me smile you will be happy,

i'm glad that you're there to be with me.

i miss the time when i get angry,

u'll try your very best to make me happy;

with every tricks that you had tried,

you say that only food can make me happy.

Now i'm here alone with doggy,

crying alone emotionally,

and nobody is there for me.

No reason for me to cry,

and I guess,

missing you is the only way to explain.

sorry for being unreasonable,

sorry for being busybody.

sorry for making you unhappy,

thanks for accompanying me everynite.

Actz, my dear

i miss you much.

hope the time will soon past fast,

so that i can see you again,

having you is the greatest thing i'd ever had.

3 oct'08 Friday

Class start at 12pm and i start walking to uni at 11:30am. She was a very good lecturer, made this clear and straight to the point. I can easily understand. We learnt the types of TRUST today. after the class finish at 1pm, i go to Lloyds bank, again, to get my account opened. I waited for 30minutes, which was a much more shorter waiting time than Wednesday (i've waited for 4hours= morning 1hour + afternoon 3hours, and get to know that my name in the letter was wrong. It should be Zhu Yun Liang, but not Liang Zhu Yun. The uni.... my~~my~~ as if it was their first time to issue a bank letter. i've filled up my Last name wif Liang, and First name as Zhu Yun... I wonder why will they get it wrong and why does the Bank staff after checking my letter on Monday did not tell me about the mistake. UK?? I tot everything will be better than Malaysia.. sorry to say : OUT OF MY EXPECTATION... well, at the end of the day.. who am i to EXPECT? haha.. )

Around 1:30pm everything were done and i went to GREGGS to buy my savouries for tonite, tmr morning and sunday morning. Then, i walked back to the Uni to attend Company Law class.. If you ask me what was today's Company Law lecture about? i'll just say... i watch YOUTUBE.. haha.. anyway, it added me new knowledge. ''WHAT'S a CORPORATION"... a person says that.. i forgot wat his post is, he says that.. he thks corporation is a kind of business community.. business... dunno wat and wat.. and..

Corporation was said to be the Pathology of Commerce. In the film, they use the Personal Diagnosis Checklist of WHO to analyse the corporations.
1. Callous unconcern for the feeling of others.
2. Incapacity of maintain enduring relationship.
3. Reckless disregard for the safety of others.
4. Deceitfulness: repeated lying and conning others for profit.
5. Incapacity to experience guilty.
6. Failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviours.
Diagnosis of Personality Disorder: Psychopath.