It wasn't a good day, perhaps it should be. Money shouldn't have been the matter, and it shouldn't have messed up my day!!!!

MONEY!!!!!

I hate it... no.. not really.. if i hate it, i'll not be so unhappy with the fact that i have to spend it away!!! so.. basically, it's same logic as what people say... " i don't hate u... if i hate you, tat's mean i love and cares for you!"

WHY???? why do we need money to value the things we have? why do we need money to buy things? even though money can't buy everything, but without money, u can juz DIE!!!! cuz without money, no one will allow to live on this earth!!! even beggers need money!! even the poor needs money!~~~ everyone needs MONEY!!!! money is so important.. sigh~~

if-----
if money is so important, why can't christ be the same? mayb...human's nature.. we can only c the things and needs of now. future things... even prophets.... can't really see the things that are too far away.... wat more if... ETERNITY!

sigh... i dun understand.. why does a pack of rice can cost us GBP 20+.... why?? is it coated with gold? i just dun understand... please please please...

In fact, i've got a question... i just couldn't understand why. there was a story about a girl.

One day, the girl went to church and heard a message... about tithes and offering. The Rev. said :
when you take money too seriously, and care too much about money that you rather keep it to yourself and not offering it, then, you're taking money as BIGGER than GOD!". Money was given by God to us. Because of his grace, we have money to live. and when it comes to the time to return the money to God, and God only ask for the 10% money given to us to be returned, we should never doubt. Those are God's money and not ours. If we keep it to ourselves and not giving it back to God, it's just same as ROBBING God's money!!!! (How serious this offence is!)

another example given was... "If on Friday night, you rather attend your sibling's birthday party than knowingly absent from cell group, then you're taking your family as more IMPORTANT than GOD!"

well, the girl knew that taking money more serious than God is sinning against God. she knew this since very young. Somehow, she still take money as very very serious and personal. She tried to catch some loopholes which she can escape from giving tithes and offers. For example, seperating tithes from offers, or giving tithes in one goal and stop offering for a month. In fact, she knew that this doesn't please God. Nothing happens.

However, when she heard the sermon, she start to think deeply, and she decided to tithe 10% of the money given by her grandparents and uncle aunties. For that time, it can be said that, that was the very first time she did not think of escaping from her obligation to tithe and offer. She tithe, with all her heart. Praying that God will forgive her and will help her in the future, as she is going abroad to further her studies. And she believe with all her heart, with no doubts, that God will for sure, take care of all her needs. And, as it was told that when you tithe, you can challenge God even though it was told that we cannot challenge God. But in the sermon, it truly and clearly mentioned that, you can challenge God, when you tithe. God will provide you with the things you need.... and.. most importantly... PROVIDE YOU MORE THAN YOU ASK OR EXPECTED TO RECEIVE!!!! holding on this promise, she asked for God's blessing to be upon her when she goes abroad, and provide her with more than she expect.

She doubted now. Why? Why does she not only get nothing from her prayer, but also lose the things she has? If you answer that, because God doesn't exist, then you're wrong! TOTALLY WRONG! cuz she had in her life time experienced God's mercy and grace ! She had in her life time experience the TRUE AND LIVING GOD that she was so fearful of God! God was so real that she just couldn't believe that every prayer that she made, GOD ANSWERED!!!! but why this no longer happens? WHY?

2 of xxx TESTIMONIES:
1. she prayed that : "I want to follow my friends to Genting Highland for convention." God answered her prayer and let her mother allow her to go.
2. she prayed that : " I hope I can get the from sit in the flight!" God does not only answered her prayer but also... amazingly, and... miracle happens... she was invited to sit with the Capten of the flight and see them do the flight landing! Isn't this amazing?


Then why not God answer her prayer when she encounter problems now?

I wonder why, too.


P/S: no matter how doubtful I am, I'm grateful that God has given you in my life.
Love you, Actz!