13.12.11

pictures edited by cassandra

The long-awaited proposal was finally fulfilled.

Honestly, I did not expect it to be on this day.
I thought it was only a gathering dinner for his fren's belated birthday celebration,
and a gathering for them to play monopoly.
I enjoyed the night and fellowship.

When he asked me to take-over his place to play the monopoly,
I thought he need to go to the Gents.
Perhaps I was drown in the monopoly board game.

I did notice that he ask Soong to go to the front..
but I did not give much attention to what he was trying to do.
even when Soong came in and tell us that
"Nyap asks u guys to go to the front"
I was still playing with the monopoly,
and only after a while that we move our steps.

When I went to the front,
I saw a fren standing at the main door.
The first thing that came across my mind was..
"Oh my God.... is there anything happened to him?"
Out of a sudden, i saw a bunch of flowers and he appears.
I can't really react at that moment, and my head was blank.
and then, I  realize he was trying to make a proposal.
I was a bit shy.
and the next thing was..
"Gosh... I've just took my shower and removed my makeup!"
I always wanted my marriage proposal to be recorded.
So now should I still ask for it to be recorded?

Well, thank God that andrew did record it for us.
the first reaction, the true reaction.
Here's the video link:  13.12.11 - marriage proposal

He knelt on one leg,
with flowers and rings in both his hands.
He wore a custom made t-shirt,
with pink colour words "嫁给我lah..." printed on it.
I was then asked to change the t-shirt that he prepared if I accept his proposal.

He did not say the words out.
but to me, it's better than just saying the words without reducing it into writing
I like things to be in black and white.
so that I will feel more secured.


documentary evidence always have more weight than oral evidence,
ain't it?

Thanks to all the friends who share our happiness
and thanks for the blessings.
and thanks to Cassandra who sincerely share my joy.. and kept shouting
"啊。。。　我很开心哦。。我很开心哦。."



- and , we took many funny pictures after the proposal -

12.12.2011

雷雨交加的临晨

有人特意到你床边

只因知道你害怕

　恐怖的雷声

憨厚的肩膀

给的

不只是安全感

更是无言的依靠

终究得面对

我终于明白 美好的往往留不下

却能给人 最深最远的影响

你笑容里的暖阳 你说过的每句话

总是 陪着我出门又陪着我回家

很感谢你 给了我好长的依靠

那种甜蜜 不是想要就能得到

我会微笑着退让 全归你的功劳

尽管眼泪不知不觉地流下

我能体谅 你离开我的身旁 超越我的感伤

我能体谅 你要的那个远方 让我追不上

都那么地爱过 有什么不能为 对方着想

就让爱的人也能爱他所爱 

也算是幸福吧

因为爱你 我上了最好的一课

原来成长 不只是一味的快乐

你忠于你的选择 要更好的人生

我不能陪你 至少要帮你完成

寂寞不痛 痛在念旧

越小的事 越多的感受

时间像笨小偷 把幸福打破

留下了碎片 让人难过

有些東西終於名正言順的時候，反而失去了意義 ...

小時候拍照片，很喜歡"V"的手勢，傻傻的喊"yeah"，或者搗亂給別人做個兔子耳朵。

大學了，不好意思擺"V"的手勢了，覺得好傻，卻又沒什麼新想法，局促不安不知道手放哪裡好。

於是，懂了，成長，我們要開始戒掉很多習慣，而用來替代一時還沒有找到。

中學下了晚自習，浩浩蕩盪一大群同學結伴騎車回家，聊天，飆車，大喊，為了多鬧一會，繞點遠也甘願。
大學下了課，回寢室的回寢室，忙工作的去忙工作，陪女友的忙著接女友。
笑著罵他們王八蛋。
於是，懂了，嘲笑這個寂寞，嘲笑那個寂寞，其實現在自己才真正經歷著寂寞。

中學的時候很叛逆，遇到挫折，和父母吵架就想離家出走，闖蕩世界。

大學了，遇到委屈，面對不公，就想往家裡跑，躲在媽媽懷裡什麼也不說，拍拍我的背就行。

於是，懂得了，羽翼未豐的翅膀惦記著飛，展翅翱翔了卻惦記著歸。

小時候什麼事都喜歡爭第一：要第一個會寫連筆字，第一個騎自行車上學......
大學後什麼事都喜歡往中間跑：不打頭陣，不拖後腿，穩穩噹噹就好。
於是，懂了，前面爭議大，後面是非多，平衡的地方還是祖宗留下來的中庸。


高中時老師管得嚴，過新年不許送賀卡，說一是浪費錢，二是把那些送賀卡的心思用在學習上。
然後我們就偷偷摸摸的送：裝作不經意的經過，快速把賀卡塞到收信人的桌子裡；或者夾在書里以結束的名義傳遞。人人都成了地下黨。
大學了，經過賣賀卡的攤子，都會停留好一會，看了又看然後走開，不是老師不讓寄，而是不知道給誰寄。
於是，懂了，有些東西終於名正言順的時候，反而失去了意義。


高中寫作文，第一段亮出觀點，第二段用一長一短兩個例子論證，最後一段總結昇華，呼應全文。常常罵高考作文是“新八股”，泯滅創造力，然後偷偷摸摸自娛自樂寫一些個性飛揚的文字。
大學後，沒限制了，憋得臉通紅卻什麼都寫不出來，反倒希望有個範例。
於是，懂了，四處喊著要宣揚個性的，往往是最沒個性的。

高中的時候只能穿校服，走到哪年齡大的就叫我弟弟，年齡小的就叫我哥哥。

大學沒校服，地鐵上半老徐娘都管我叫小伙子，初中生還喊我叔叔，還得硬著頭皮答應。

於是，懂了，實質上，我們早就不是孩子了。

高中的時候能跑能跳都得憋著，能說會唱都得忍著，高考只考語數外史地政理化生。大家都是同一籠包子，看上去一樣。
大學裡，玩的就是素質，有特長就能獨當一面，雖然進來的時候都是包子，但就看哪個包子褶兒多，哪個包子長得像漢堡，拼個性。
於是，懂了，就算自己哪哪都短，關鍵時刻還是得有一特長。


小時候聽過1999年世界末日，驚恐萬分。
現在我還好好的活著。
大學了，2012的傳言四起。想想1999的經歷，我決定等2013太陽的升起。
於是，我懂了，人們總是喜歡自己嚇唬自己，而嚇唬的方式沒有任何新意。


以前開學，自己包書皮，用到期末，每本書封面乾乾淨淨的，裡面卻密密麻麻黑壓壓全是筆記。
大學以後，沒有包過書皮，一個學期下來書沒用幾次，卻把表面弄得又髒又皺，而裡面乾乾淨淨，和新的一樣。
於是，懂得了，對於有表有里的堅持應該學學從前的自己。


以前老師上課板書寫錯了或者講錯了，我們會提醒更正。
大學上課，老師弄錯了，沒人說話，一部分是不敢說，一部分是沒什麼可說，一部分是看笑話，還有一部分是根本不知道講得是什麼。
於是，懂得了，童言無忌，即使沉默的原因有很多。

高中的時候給老師起外號，私下里同學都這麼叫。

大學了，想給老師起外號，卻發現根本不知道老師大號。

於是，懂了，有些幼稚的遊戲，已經玩不下去了。

硬著頭皮進大學學經濟，雖然在別人看來我這個學校的經濟有多麼多麼牛，其實冷暖自知。剛上大學的時候我想出國，成績不行想轉專業，轉專業未果準備考公務員，公務員考試越來越激烈越來越黑於是準備CPA。

開始我想環遊世界，後來想賺大錢，後來想有穩定的工作，再後來希望順利找到好工作。我的夢想在越來越萎縮，卻被認為越來越實際，務實。

於是，我懂了，在現實和夢想之間，我們都是從夢想趨向於現實的以至於越來越偏離，等現實滿足了，再看夢想，已經遠的看不到了。

以前學習，一學期一本書，然後還要好好保管，高考前還要重新看。書裡的內容多年後翻看，還會有回憶。
大學之後，一學期一本書，用過之後就賣掉，想想自己學過的書是什麼樣封面，沒有什麼印象。準備考研重新看的時候，感覺怎麼都是新書。

於是，就懂得了，有時候，重複讓人踏實，新鮮反而讓人無感。

高中的時候熬不住了就想再堅持一下，到時候考個大學上上就得了！
大學了，看著自己的專業，看看以前的同學出國的出國，獎學金的獎學金，然後開始罵自己，當初怎麼不再多堅持一下。

於是，懂得了，人的確有無限的潛力，如果以現狀看從前。

高中時候上課偷摸看個青年文摘、當代歌壇，愜意的不得了。
一邊看著小說，一遍提防著老師，看的也不亦樂乎。
上了大學，偶然一次經過報亭，買了本青年文摘，給了老闆三塊，老闆說三塊五。我問什麼時候漲了得，老闆說漲了有一年多了。我才發現，大學之後，再沒買過青年文摘。
於是，我懂得，是不是有些老友和快樂我們慢慢忘記了？

高中的時候堅持不住了，想想高考之後就解放了，可以不穿校服，可以睡懶覺...苦點也有盼頭。

大學堅持不住了，想想畢業，就想到了找工作。想到了工作，就想到了討老婆，想到討老婆就想到了房子、車子...越想越不敢想。

於是，懂得了，未來不僅是用來嚮往的，也是用來鞭策自己的。

我说--人生

我说:

人生像个陷阱

你一旦出生了

就得一直往前

开心或不开心

都得过每一秒

没得停留

更没得回头

它会让你沉迷在

不喜欢的事物很久
它会让你误以为未来很美
它一直告诉你
你得打好基础努力前进
但它不会告诉你
你会遇到什么困难瓶颈
你会有多少负担
你会失去亲人和快乐

它不让你选择
"不想长大"
也只任你说

一切已来不及时

能勇敢面对与否

苟且偷生 

都得走到尽头.

-ELZY-

The Dash

came across and read this from a forward email. it's meaningful, especially "For it matter not, how much we own, the cars...the house...the cash.What matters is how we live and love, and how we spend our dash."

 

The Dash
by Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matter not, how much we own,
the cars...the house...the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile...
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
with your life's actions to rehash,
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

 

 

People are always asking me what, in particular, inspired me to write this poem. I believe it was a combination of things in my life at the time. It was during a period when I was working for the top executives of a very large and successful corporation. It was a strict company with a tense working environment.

I began to watch how the priorities in many lives there had become misaligned. It seemed to me that the bosses were worrying far too much about that which was inconsequential in the scope of life.

Also, resonating in the back of my mind were the words from a letter which had been previously routed around the office. It had been written by the wife of an employee who was aware that she was dying. I was so moved by that letter that I saved a copy of it and continue to live by her words:

Regrets? I have a few. Too much worrying. I worried about finding the right husband and having children, being on time, being late and so on. It didn't matter. It all works out and it would have worked out without the worries and the tears.

If I would have only known then what I know now. But, I did and so do you. We're all going to die. Stop worrying and start loving and living.

Her words stuck with me. Her letter made me stop and think. This is it. This is all we get.

I remember where I was when I first truly realized the significance of the piece that I had written. I was on a business trip in Minnesota, alone in a hotel room. I received an emotional email thanking me for sharing the message of The Dash from a student who had recently heard it as part of a memorial gathering for the Columbine High School students. I sat on the bed and cried.

Several years later, I found myself engulfed in the thoughts and feelings created by my own words as I listened to them read aloud, for what seemed like the very first time, at the funeral of my father...my best friend. I write this closing exactly one year from that day and never have the words of the poem meant more to me.

From being performed in an elementary school play somewhere in the heartland of America to being part of a State Supreme Court Justice's speech, from being printed in best-selling novels to high school yearbooks, The Dash has truly affected millions. I may not be able to change the world with these words, but I have certainly been able to influence a portion of it! The poem's words have convinced mothers to spend more time with their children, fathers to spend more time at home, and reunited long-lost loved ones.

The words have changed attitudes, and changed the direction of lives. They have, in their own way, made a difference. I know writing The Dash has changed my life. I hope reading it, in some ways, may change yours.

時間

花些時間《閱讀》．它是智慧的泉源。
Take time to read – It is the fountain of wisdom.

花些時間《思考》．那是行動的燃料。
Take time to think – It is the fuel of action.

花些時間《遊戲》．它是青春永駐的秘訣。
Take time to play – It is the secret of perpetual youth.

花些時間《安靜》．那是尋自我的時刻。
Take time to be quiet – It is the opportunity to seek yourself.

花些時間去《注意》．那是幫助別人的契機。
Take time to be aware – It is the opportunity to help others.

花些時間《給予》．因為我們沒有時間自私。
Take time to give – It is too short a day to be selfish.

花些時間《去愛和被愛》．那是生命最大的禮物。
Take time to love and to be loved – It is greatest gift of life.

花些時間對人《友善》．這是通往快樂之路。
Take time to be friendly – It is the road to happiness.

花些時間《歡笑》．它是心靈的音樂。
Take time to laugh – It is the music of the soul.

花些時間《夢想》．那是塑造未來的材料。
Take time to dream – It is what the future is made of.

6 年 7 个月

说了不讲不想 却还拼命念
不爽念了冷战 却还是没变


人事物 我没能力改变。
我想要的 你终究给不了。
不是不能等；只是等累了。
你不会懂 我等的有多厌倦。
甚至 争取，也只是徒然。

失望

说过了不等；

但却总是在期待着些什么。

事到如今

做了好久的朋友
以为对彼此了解已经彻底
从朋友变成情人
才了解相爱没有相处容易
失去了权利保有任何距离
失去了距离保有任何秘密
失去了所有秘密
也失去了美丽


你给过我的承诺
我相信最后只是力不从心
想要的终究太多
忘记了爱情没有回头余地

捉不住情人们憧憬的甜蜜
找不回朋友间有过的默契
我们太急着催促幸福前进
结果却是缘份被淘尽

事到如今
再说什么 还有什么意义
而你的深情的表情
看在我眼里 多么的痛心

早知道爱情
让你我连友情都难再续
我宁可认命就相信
当初对你有模糊的爱情
是因为孤寂

I can't stop loving you, but i can stop showing how much i love you.

From

"I hope we can be together forever!"
 ...

"I wanna marry you!"
 ...

"Will you marry me?"
...

To
"When are we getting married?"
...


Perhaps,
I shall stop showing how much i long to be with you forever.

你不爱我

习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切

你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 为你在狼狈
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 和命运作对
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
一直以为 我是后卫
原来只是 那后备

p/s:　如果今天，我下定决心不再等你了，

      那会是你错过车； 还是我下错站？

This is not love.

From the moment you tell me that u're waiting for me to change before you can make your lifetime commitment into this relationship, deep down in my heart I know for sure that after all these while, u're just not loving me for who I am. And it hurts. It really hurts... 

我的心真的受伤了

很 .受 .伤

 

 为什么不早点告诉我？ 为什么要我丢尽颜面，
 你才肯告诉我
 我不配。

你不明白的事

- You can't always wait for the perfect time. Sometimes, you need dare to do it because life's too short to wonder what could have been -

独角戏

这场人生

我一个人演。

讨厌虚伪；

懒得伪装。

我防着伤心；

也把快乐

一概拒之千里。

我

爱上了        我不保留   

random

一句  ： 没关系，我等你。。。 是为了让你有更宽广的天空；
一句  ： 没关系，我等你。。。 是为了让你知道，在疲累的时候，还有背后这一片温柔。

"Dream" watch

i've been searching for a white watch, 

with little diamond pieces surrounding the watch plate

and this is exactly what i like

I like this watch.

but

it doesn't seem possible for me to have it

:S

Intro:

A legendary bridge in France, known as a lovers’ place, has become the inspiration for a poetic watch!

Pont des Amoureux is the French bridge going over Thiou River in Annecy. The town is also known as the Venice of France. This romantic concept is what exactly has gone into making Van Cleef Arpels’ latest watch, a week and more ahead of Valentines Day. The watch-maker firm Van Cleef & Arpels has presented it as a women’s watch. The result is a rare piece you would want to grab.

With its exquisite jewelry components with artistic craftsmanship, the watch includes tiny details. Speaking of its utility, the details are worth taking a look at. Two figurines travel along respective hour or minute retrograde dials to display the time. The figure of a woman carrying an umbrella is its hour indicator. A man, secretly holding a flower behind his back, indicates the minutes. The traditional display is further complicated and here is how – with the time is 12 o’clock on the hour, the lovers meet at the center for a kiss! Call that oodles of love pouring into engineering!

A manually wound Jaeger-LeCoultre 846 mechanical movement is hidden in the watch. The bridge in question on its dial is however not the actual Pont des Amoureux French bridge. The fairy tale time piece is priced at $116,000.

等待 . 转淚点

是我做得不够好

还是我不配？

为什么总是等不到

转淚点？

总有一天

等待的

终究会到

只是怕

还没到

就已经失去

等待的能耐。

或者说

是要“遗憾”了

才能懂得“珍惜”？

TRUST GOD FOR HIS GUIDANCE

saw this facebook post by Rev. James Wong.

it hits just on my face.

what we, or to be precise, "he"
has been worrying about all these while.
we just need to trust GOD for his Guidance.

Reflecting the past,
ever since i took up the LAW course,
and for all the while when i was walking down the LAW course's path,
it wasn't easy AT ALL.
How many times i cried in front of the webcam, telling my parents that i wanna give up.

How many times i told my parents that i can't continue and begged them to save up the money for my brother's education fund.
How many times i blamed myself for choosing this road.
How many sleepless night that i've used to prepare myself for the exams
How much enjoyment have i sacrificed to bury myself in the books.
I thought i wouldn't make it this far. 

BUT
what brought me to what i achieved today was
my RELIANCE on HIM
as mom always tell me.

AND NOW
the decision to enter a marriage and to continue walking down the road
involves not only me and GOD
this becomes a lil' more complicated
it's a triangle relationship
and GOD shall be the center of this relationship.

our relationship could only become energized and solidified when the two points at the bottom are joined to a mutual third point that is held by God at the triangle’s apex. The sides of the triangle thus represent the bond that each of the marriage partners have with the Divine. Now while it is true that “he who joins himself to the Lord becomes spiritually one with him” (1 Cor. 6:17), our spiritual union is a constant journey to become closer and closer to God. An equally yoked relationship where each partner is pursuing a journey to unite himself or herself with God also brings the couple closer together as is represented by the greater proximity of the sides of the triangle as one gets closer to its apex.

倒带

我受够了等待  你所谓的安排
说的未来  到底多久才来
总是要来不及  才知道我可爱
我想依赖  而你却都不在

应该开心的地带  你给的全是空白
一个人假日发  呆找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的门外  却一直都进不来
你累积给的伤害  我是真的很难释怀

终于看开爱回不来  而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开  哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来  我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开  宁愿没出息求我别离开

你总是要我乖  慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
过去怎么交代 你该给的信赖
被你亲手  缓缓推入悬崖

从我脸上的苍白  看到记忆慢下来
过去甜蜜在倒带  只是感觉已经不在
 
而我对你的期待  被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块要怎么拼凑跟重来

曾经 ，喜欢 “倒带” 的歌词和旋律 

现在 ，明白 “倒带” 的歌词和含义

我恨

该怨的是 我只定睛在你身上

该怨的是 我是讨厌等待的人


该怨的是 我舍不得让你伤心


所以我搞得自己 像个 神经病

31日1月2011年

你这天要到亚庇公干和回家过年。
为了即将来临的这整个礼拜，
我月头就已经发过唠叨，
埋怨甚至发过神经了。


我知道你很想回家看妈妈；
所以，发了神经也不能生气骂你。
因为你做的，是对的。

虽然你问过我要不要，可不可以
和你一起回去过年
但是我觉得我没身份
在这个特别的团圆日子陪你回去
毕竟我也有家人想要我可以和他们过年。
我也想陪他们。

心理建设做了很久
才能说服自己
你新年不在没关系。
虽然事实上真的并没什么大不了。


离别的前一晚
你说你莫名地舍不得我
感觉像是要分开很久
我很开心

我也知道你为了这次非常短暂的离别
也尽量每天晚上抽空带我出去逛逛
想让我开心。
我都懂。

30.1.2011, 在车上， 你说
“等我够钱买戒指，我们就去画龟”

在面子书信箱，你留言说
“January 28 at 3:38pm
bibi..

i love u duo duo...
hehe.
i will bring u home with me soon ya..

muackz.”

你说你妈告诉你

"成家立业, 意思是说

要先成家,才来立业"

这些话, 我想，你是在说你会娶我

但我都一笑置之

我不懂为什么

我很矛盾

我期待你会娶我

但是因为你曾说过的"那句话"

我变得不敢再相信你很快会娶我.

因为我不想再失望了.

但是

如果你真的一点点都没有再说/表达你会娶我

我又会想很多很多

想到自己又再生闷气

乱发脾气,发神经

我啊我

拜托别再乱想东西了

不是一切都在我预料之中的

我不能掌控所有事情

I shall remember this:

Matthew 6:33 

"Seek ye first the kingdom of God,and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

秦俑

有沒有一種漂泊可以停留
我思念已久途中盡受折磨
空氣腐蝕了我同伙
獨留 我一個人在盡頭

有沒有哪種時間可以從頭
我想要回去再吃個窩窩頭
回神只埋在黑暗中
恍如隔世 你從我 頭頂 走過

吳腔楚調我開了口
你聽不聽得懂
我喊了好久
你還是忽略我
沒有漂泊可以停留
我的同伙獨留我

沒有時間可以從頭
回神只埋在黑暗中
恍如隔世 你從我 頭頂 走過

我只能 任由你 展覽我

25? i.m.p.o.s.s.i.b.l.e

mom was telling me that she expects me to get married on the age of 25.

i told her that i have other plan and am not gonna get married that soon.

she asked, still you two hafta be married before u can do that,aren't you?

i told her i'm not gonna WAIT like..

FOREVER... NO!

 it's not that i do not want,

but

i've convinced myself to give up.

太迟

请 别在我 放弃 的时候

才 告诉我  你 准备好了。。。

习惯

没把握的东西，别让它成为你的习惯。

                                                                                 否则一旦失去了，该怎么恢复自己原来的样子？

电发记

昨晚电，

今早直。 

谁的头发可以向我的酱直到

？？ 

>.<

14 & 15 Jan 2011

14th January 2011
-12:30pm :

Actz brought me along to Shervinton to test their food, cuz he is  in charge of his company's annual dinner.



-7:00pm :
went to Lee Ling's wedding dinner. Bernice said that Actz has changed, talk less nowadays as he used to be a funny n talkative person while we were in secondary school. Well, his funniness & talkativity i can still experience them, almost everydy.. but i like his attitude now, compare to how he used to be. cuz i'm a kind of person who can get jealous, very very easily. so, talking too much with other girls would trigger my temper. :P

there was no entertainment throughout the dinner. but slideshow shows alot of her old pictures n indicates her achievement in life. So, Actz starts to worry that he doesn't have any pic of achivement to show in HIS own wedding. *well, this prove how important for him to attend his graduation ceremony in kl, and assuring us that we've made the right decision to attend it. but, what about my CLP graduation ceremony? i dun even know the date yet. =.='*


15th January 2011
9:35am
-woke up, showered n wait for mom to come home. supposed to acc her to the wet market, but she said she dared not to wake me up the second time. waited til 9:30am, she left n went alone.. sorry mom.. :P

-made salad wif mom. salad's ingredient: sweet potato, eggs, macaroni, pineapple, apple & mayonaise. NICE~~

12:30pm
-Actz came, from work. he asked me whether i have any plan for tonight and whether i can acc him to attend his company supplier's, Joo Loong's dinner at Dreamland as he is representing his company to attend the dinner..  he's bringing me to attend dinner as his partner.. :)

12:45pm
-acc Actz to da bao 排骨王饭, came home.

1:30pm
- went to 强生for lunch, with grandparents & mom's sister n my cousins. have not been seeing them for years as they've migrated to aus.

知足， 常乐

went to hunt for CNY shirt yesterday.
but bought nothing.
either they're not my kind of style,
or they're too expensive for me to afford it.

So, ended up, bought nothing.

was a bit upset & moody
cuz, there's really no new clothing for CNY
this mood,
undoubtedly, affects not only me but also the people around me.

I kept silent on the way home.
Actz, just like he always do
tried to make some joke which,
at that very moment
i do NOT know how to appreciate.
it only irritates me.
i got angry
and it's his turn to keep silent.

Half way through the journey home,
I saw a malay house on the road side.
on the left of the house,
2 adults were sitting on a bench,
helping the other to cut her hair.
on the right of the house,
a top-naked child was looking for something
from the GARBAGE
with curiosity, i guess.
He puts on a smiling face,
when he found something.

This scene,
leads me back to what i saw on Saturday morning
when i accompanied my mom to the fish market.
A child,
also top-naked
slipping here and there in the fish market
bare footed.
when he stopped,
all under his foot were
dirty black fishy water.

He was very happy
though the place is smelly n dirty.

I started to think
why should i feel so down?
what's the big deal of not having new clothes for CNY?
I have other nice and "looking new" dresses in my wardrobe.
I mean, not that i have no pleasant clothing to wear, right?
I shouldn't be mad or unhappy.
that's not the right attitude.

at times,
we tend to "forget" or "ignore" how blissful we are.
AND
the more we have in our life, the more we felt lacked.

if we have nothing,
we would be happy with just a tiny little thing we could get,
even it is something which others no longer want.

I felt glad that I could realize this
fast enough
and didn't waste a few hours of my life
to feel the insufficiency
which in fact
i have a lot of things,
which others doesn't have.
and makes the people around me to suffer
for my bad mood.

p/s: see how happy the elephant is? 

it is just sitting under the waterfalls!

=)

my new year resolution.

~ 把爆燥和容易不耐烦的坏脾气改掉。
~不把 “快速" 和 “有效率” 的要求 套用在某个种族的身上.
~不奢望这里的人能用英文沟通, 我要多说他们的语言.
~努力学习新的东西.
~到处走走,开拓视野;增广见闻.
~如果自己赚到的钱够, 就自修报考 ICSA.

2011 年 1 月 1 日， 回忆过去的 12月31日

31　Dec 2005-
31 Dec 2006 -　在吉隆坡和你及ＫＫＹ在ＫＬ的酒店看外面的人挤人。

31 Dec 2007 -  在纽约的Times Square和家人欢度。吃了不错的泰式晚餐后， 在冷冷的纽约街头，喝了杯热热的巧克力。你在我心里。

31 Dec 2008 -　我在伦敦的ＨＯＳＴＥＬ　和你通视像；放弃了拥挤的大笨钟倒数计划。我认为，值得。
31 Dec 2009 - 一起在斗湖过， 没 特别庆祝，但是我很开心。你在我身边。
31 Dec 2010 - 一起在斗湖过，去了FARFALLE，绕水机，　回家，再去　Yacht Club。我很很很开心。

~Farfalle~

~Table Reservation~

~You insisted to take this pic

& i love it, alot ~

~ Yours :  Lamb Shoulder~

~Mine : Chicken Chop ~

~ ♥ US ♥ ~

~ I'm very very happy ~ 

p/s: this photo was taken by my sis on 31/12/2010 afternoon

♥ L.O.V.E. YOU  ♥