Nothing.

I should have learned of this 1 thing
EXPECT NOTHING.
NOTHING AT ALL!

he loves himself more than me.
yet
i love him more than myself.
how on earth could there be someone so naive
to continually living with this kind of stupidity?

everything is about himself.
words could easily be spelled out
yet
actions could never lie

He is just not the exceptions to the General Rule.
bear with it.
no more "perhaps"
and i SHALL stay SOBER in this relationship.

but,
how?

RANDOM dec 2010

a late night conversation with Actz.. :)

steamboat on a Friday night, it's good to have u with me, cuz i wanna share my happiness with u..

my family- Amos Liang

Silly Monkey

anticipating APRIL 2011 =)

WHY? 

cuz we'll b going to KL
to attend Actz's Convocation!!!

finally..
we're DEGREE HOLDERS~~
=)
oops.. not to forget my CLP
so, i'm also a
PROFESSIONAL CERT HOLDER
*ngek ngek ngek*

and it's something to be happy about!

his parents are going to attend as well
guess they'll be very proud of their son
*not to forget the fact that years ago,
Actz tried very hard to persuade his dad to allow him to go to UNI*

also, i have a chance to visit the
Midvalley that i LONGED to re-visit

 I

AM

SO

HARPPIE
=)

everytime JEALOUSY hits.

JEALOUSY 

it's hunting me down.

everytime i get to know

what he has

what she got

it's all about
the things that
i don't even dare to dream for

how come
they can have it?
&

why have i not enjoy

such indulgences?

the cost to pay for being the eldest?

i'd rather be the youngest,

if, and only if i could have 

the privilege of making a
CHOICE.

无 “行” 的背叛

第一次，我原谅
第二次，对不起，我没那么傻。
我也怪我在不适当的时候聪明。
我也很难过。

也许我也该尝尝网恋 的那种简单快乐。

男人， 贪得无厌。

女人也一样。

只是男人是对别的女人；

女人却是对同一个男人。



你说女人总爱想很多
我也一样
可是你是否在乎过我的感受？
如果你没说过，
我能凭空想得出来吗？
我不也曾对你的爱深信不疑？
在你怪我想太多的时候，
你有没有心疼过我为我们的感情流的泪？

你聪明得不曾许下任何承诺；
我愚昧得抱着幻想继续付出。
我忽然明白了这游戏里的角色 ；
在我们的关系里，
我彻彻底底得败给了你。

在我为你付出一切之后；
发现你是你自己的。
或许，我不该再为谁而停留。

一句真诚的话， 足以打进人心最深层；足以令人傻笑一整天。。。

从昨晚开始就情不自禁的一直傻笑
不为什么；
只因为他的一句话；
一句打动我心底最深层的话。

虽然不是花言巧语
但却是我将近六年来
从他口中听过最最甜的一句。

他说:　
＂我给自己设了一个目标，那就是在我还没娶到你之前，我＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＂．
虽然那不是一句＂我爱你＂；
但是，看着他，我知道，　他很爱我．
：）

=S

been very emotional yesterday.
he counted out my emotions for the day, being:
"angry because he got up late(actually not because he woke up late but i tot of what he did last nite*),
ok before going out for lunch,
happy when i'm eaing,
sad because i have nothing to do,
happy because he accompanied me to watch TV shows,
angry because he said smthing wrong,
expressionless because the saloon close and he can't cut his hair (because i've been telling him to go out earlier),
sad and cried dunno for what,
happy because he brought me to Giant,
smile because he bought me Cheezels,
very happy because he brought me to SMSC to feed the fishes with my sis though it was raining."

and he said he feels blissful and blessed
because he has a girl friend who can let him experience all the different emotions,
just in one SHORT day!
=S
p/s: perhaps it's because it is the end of November...

*He'd been out til very late on Saturday night,
saying that they were helping a fren out with his proposal to the gf.
I mean, i'm angry not because he got home late but, he HELPed out with other's proposal.*


I hate being the planner in our relationship,
but I love to control everything.
I must and I need to know what's going on now and then.

I must get everything planned beforehand,
perhaps it's because that's how i'm trained to be.


I need a PLAN.
show  me your plan,
our i'll get things planned.
that simple.

but i guess not everyone is brought up this way,
and so, it's not easy to expect others to do so.
It became a burden, worry or i would say,
it would end up to be a kind of 'weariness' which i can't cope with.

OR, because I love to get things planned,
and I want it to be planned according to my will,
I plan our thing,
and he just follow my plan, sometimes.

In fact, I know he can plan very well.
Or else, his marketing plan for his company's product wouldn't be a success and broke the target which the company has set!
I'm very very proud of him!
but  

why why why why why 

i can't c him planning for OUR future?
or he's not telling me the PLAN because....... because......
he wants it to be a surprise as he said, but i don't believe?

I started to get tired of planning.
for no feedback or response is given or shown.

and so, I plan for my own future.

i've been telling my besties that I'm having this thought:
"I wanna take the CLP again!"
cuz i wanna get in to government sector.
I wanna be on the TOP 20,
so that i'll be called by the AG Chamber.

what I get now,
is not enough to fulfill my dream.
I want better.

my frens kept asking me was that because i'm planning for OUR future,
but I told them i'm planning my OWN future.

to be honest, that doesn't mean that I'm counting him out
just that, i'm tired of counting in the uncertainties..

at least for my OWN plan,
I'm in charge of it.
I can minimize the uncertainties, the risk
and, the disappointments...

my CLP lecturer once told us that
getting in to this field,
please don't expect to make BIG money.
this is not a business,
it is a service field.
U can still change,
before getting in to the battlefield.

my response to that statement was:
WTH!
i've been working so hard all these while,
and i'm getting in to the CLP exam hall in 2 months' time
and u're telling me not to expect BIG money in this field?
come on, give me sm constructive and encouraging words..

fine.
he's right.
I seriously see no future despite hardwork in this field.
Oh, also,
negative thoughts is planted in me,
day after day, in the sense that:


Actz is making a lot more money than i do,
at least for now.
He's been telling me that what he earns now,
he's saving it and will use it for our future.
Maybe my work involves too much TRUTH of LIFE;


no matter how sweet the thing is,
no matter how much I believe his words and love for me FOR NOW,
i've been made to TRUST and KNOW that things will CHANGE,
nothing is consistent in this world,
despite CHANGES.

whether for better or for worse,
there'll be a change.

of course i pray for a positive change,
for i love him dearly.

我宁愿我遇到的都是正小人，而不是伪君子

笑里藏刀的熟人
比陌生人还来得恐怖

所以
我不会与别人太熟络
我宁可让一个我从不认识的陌生人陷害，
也不想被一个我以为我完全了解他，
懂得他的人来陷害，诋毁。

我不想被人从背后捅了一刀；
转身发现
原来是我一直信任的朋友。


别问我为什么不爱参加教堂的聚会，
为什么不爱与‘兄弟姐妹’联系，
我只能说，---人多是非多；　
我不懂得处理；我太在意别人的看法； 我不会承受是非。

Pig Dog (in chinese)

After a busy morning, I went to the MALAYSIA POST OFFICE to collect my parcel during my precious lunch time, excitedly.

Not sure whether was that my problem of being forgetful or what, I thought I could get my parcel easily n smoothly from "their" hands. So, I chose to go to the PosOffice before I go home for lunch.

I went to PosLaju counter 2, and I was the 2nd in the line. the person in front of me, being one of "their" kind, did not bring the F***ing 'SORRY NOTE' nor did he have the tracking number with him. With only his VERY SPECIAL name, being the very ONE & ONLY name in Malaysia, he thought the ADVANCE TRACKING SYSTEM could track his MEGA PARCEL.

I waited for about 15 minutes, listening to the BRILLIANT conversation n watching the lady GRACEFULLY flipped through the "seemed-to-be dirty" parcels. 

there was a "GENTLE"MEN sitting just next to this counter 2 with nothing to do but his lovely computer games, did not even offer any help.
Not sure whether it's my problem of putting too much hope on this Government-fed "gentle"men or what,  when i saw that he could just sit there and continue with his computer game, I forgive his insensitivity in realizing the need of help of that lady and  I naively thought that I could ask for his help to find out my parcel first, instead of just waiting at there!

So, I approached him and with a BROAD SMILE, I said : "Encik, bolehkah kamu tolong carikan parcel saya? saya kerja masa. saya perlu pergi kerja".

Still clicking on his mouse, he said: " biarpun saya dapat parcel tu, kamu masih perlu sign di kaunter sana. Jadi, beraturlah di sana."

F you bast***! If you could just remove your UHU glue-sticked fingers from the mouse and get your heavy ass moved a lil' bit to the  "garbage-like" parcel mountain which is just, for God's sake, 1 step from you, you could help to SAVE ppl's TIME!!!!!!!!! Don't you know that!!!!!!!!!

and please! Although i'm not working in post office, don't think that i'm as stupid as you to not know that POS LAJU, this time for human's sake, with TRACKING NUMBER needs signature upon receipt!!!!!!!!!!!!
His brain just couldn't function to think that he could just get the parcel and put at the counter 2 (if he is not willing to do the  EXTRA HARD WORK of passing the receipt paper to me to put my signature on it), then i could just sign it when the lady and the uncle has settled their issue there, without having to waste another 10 more minutes to wait for her!!!!!!!!!!

And so............ here's what i want to say to these "kind" of Government Servant:

"just because you don't eat pork doesn't give you the privilege to be lazier than the pig..
just because you cannot touch dog doesn't give u an excuse to be stupid than the dog.."

 

 

结婚

今天下午，师母来我上班的律师楼签名。
签完买卖合同后，和我谈了一下。

临走前，她问我  “你几时结婚啊？”

我迟疑了几秒，说：“结婚？”    @_@

“你和你男朋友一起很久了，对吗？”

我心想---你怎么知道的？？？

然后，我看着桌上的文件，再看了看她，笑笑说
“噢，结婚哦。。。我才刚开始出来工作呢！迟些吧！”

我明明很想嫁。
天天想着嫁。。。
嫁了后，
过二人世界；
一起去旅行；
可以一起睡觉；
一早起身可以抱抱~~~

但是，当别人问到时。。。
说实在的。。。
怎么结？ 拿什么来结？
我看不到这婚可以怎么结。

结婚了，
身份不同了；做了老婆要管很多-吃的，用的，穿的。。。
负担变中了；做了老婆要管好帐目，要会存钱，这可那个。。。
生活改变了；是好是坏，一切只能认命。。。

所以呀~

幻想真的很美; 真正想想就不美了....

 

10 Tricks To Keep A Bride Looking Cool On A Hot Summer's Day

1. A great facial the week of the wedding will remove dead cells and debris from the surface of the skin, nourish and hydrate it, and leave you looking and feeling fabulous!

2. Drink TONS of water throughout the week leading up to the event.
It will help with bloating, stress and stress headaches, help alleviate under eye circles, and really help to keep your skin hydrated - one of the most important keys to a really beautiful complexion and gorgeous makeup.

3. Make sure your skin is well moisturized at least 20 minutes before makeup (if not more).
If your skin doesn't have enough moisture it will go after the moisture in your makeup, leaving it looking patchy, dry and separated.

4. Use a primer.
After your moisturizer has soaked all the way in, and before you apply foundation, apply a primer, taking special care to make sure your T Zone is well coated.
This will help makeup to adhere, stay even, and last much longer. It also helps you to stay a little more matte and a little less shiny for much longer.

5. Hire a professional makeup artist who uses airbrush makeup.This is the most technologically advanced, high performance makeup available. Why settle for anything less? It will last all day and night, won't melt or sweat, gives perfect, even coverage leaving you flawless with a super sheer finish.

6. Use a finishing spray to double down on your base staying flawless and set for hours on end!
My faves are Face Atelier's amazing Face Finish and Makeup Forever's Mist & Fix

7. Keep blotting papers or rice papers with you to lift away any surface oil or shine should it still make it through. If you keep adding powder to take away shine you'll just create an unnecessary layer of makeup that becomes increasingly visible.

8. Invest in a killer waterproof mascara and a sealing product to make eyeliner waterproof. Even if you're not the weepy type, the area around the lower lash line does tend to get extra moist, thus tempting your liner and mascara to go wandering or just disappear. I swear by Makeup Forever's Eye Seal.

9. Keep an eye on your lips. Bubbled up, gooey or broken down lipstick just look plain icky. If your lips look anything less than kissable, remove your lipstick/lip gloss with a folded kleenex, and reapply, making sure the inner line where your lips meet is clear, and doesn't have any build up.

10. When all else fails, smile! No matter how hot and humid it is, no matter how uncomfortable you are, nothing lights up the room quite like a dazzling, gorgeous smile!


- taken from Corinna B-

=D v =(

I've pass my CLP!

I'm now officially a 

CHAMBERING STUDENT!

however,

ever since we started this working life journey

we barely spend time with each other

busy with our own works

busy going out with our own friends

not even think of spending a holiday afternoon together,

JUST BOTH OF US

Still,

I love you dearly;

now and forevermore.

luckily,

we're not staying in KL

guess the situation will be even worse

cuz we hafta work til very late  nite

might not be able to see each other everyday

and so,

i started to miss STUDENT life in KL

so happy

=D

YOU

when i feel like going out

and i need a companion

yet i dun want to entertain 

with words smiles or laughters

you are the only person that i can think of

with you

i do not need to put on a fake smile 

when i'm tired

i don't need to say a word

because with you

thousand of words can be spoken through our heart 

holding your hands

i don't feel awkward

lying on your shoulder

i don't need to give a reason

因为是两个人做的事情，

有人牵着，去哪里都可以；

有人回应着，说什么也可以，

因为那是两个人的事情，

就算再无聊，它都变得好幸福。

——慕橙

ONE

Watch your thoughts, 

for they become words.

Watch your words, 

for they become actions.

Watch your actions, 

for they become habits.

Watch your habits,

for they become character.

Watch your character, 

for it becomes your destiny.

Attestation

Today

I attested the signing of a Will. 

I was the attestor of Madam Shim's Will.

First time in my life,

I attested the signing of a Will.

=D

Leave and Cleave = fundamental principle of Marriage

Leaving your parents and cleaving to your wife. 

That's the fundamental principle of Marriage.

Unfortunately, he's reluctant. 

and it's time 

for both of us 

to re-consider about 

our 5 years and 7 month's relationship.

It hurts,

but I believe 

it hurts even deeper

if that's not solved

before we make our choice.

A decision has to be made

whether to leave or stay 

No more escape

whether to continue or stop

i'm not sure whether he'll make the choice

the right choice.

I love you. 

:'(

到不了

我找不到

我到不了

你所谓的

将来的美好

我什么都不要

知不知道

若你懂我

这一秒

我想看到

我在寻找

那所谓的

爱情的美好

我紧紧地依靠

静静守牢

不敢漏掉

一丝一毫

愿你看到

Company Law.

I wish I could have this book~~ 

P/S: is Tawau really a suitable place for me??

 

希望你记得

你可知道
要女人清晨醒來
淩亂的面對一個愛的人
是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道
當女人被男人
脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人爲什麽會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼

而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

於是，你們爭吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不夠遷就她

……
 

於是，你們冷戰，你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻，用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水。
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。。。。。。。。。。

兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，

否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。。。。。。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！。。。。。。

希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去

不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！

因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界…

女孩子20歲左右是她最美麗的。這時她的心地最善良，她有點成熟，又有點孩子氣。
男孩子20左右的時候是他最暗淡的日子，這時什麼都沒有，不能獨立又不想依賴，掙扎著彷徨著，尋找著自己的位置，所以如果一個男孩子在他20歲左右的時候 遇見了與他年紀相當的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因為這個女孩子是用用自己最美麗的年華陪他走過了最暗淡的日子！女孩只有陪他走過，女孩將永遠幸福下去。

a funny conversation

was having a little conversation with Actz, and the following is roughly our conversation but almost the exact words from him...

bla bla bla~~ and the conversation continues to be :

Actz: 你应该要 marry dog and be a female dog, marry chicken and be a hen....
Me  : oh.. 可是我不要。
Actz: 你明不明我在讲什么？
Me  : 我懂。。。可是我不要。。。
Actz: 其实不是噢。。should be marry dog follow dog, marry chicken follow chicken..
Me  : but there is no dog that wants to marry me.. 你是不是那只狗？
Actz: erm.. but 我还是 a puppy...
Me  : Shut up!

*LMAO*

First day of CLP exam

好来不来，今天才来。

=

早不来

迟不来

现在它才来。

woke up 5:30am 

still, did it badly.

:(

it's much harder than i imagine.

it's not LLB!

over 100 sub-topics.

and there were only 7 Question.

how to spot.

u tel me!

this is

MALAYSIA BOLEH

天意弄人

就是

爱

在我考试前

玩我

！！！！！！！！！！！！！

22 June 2010

 went to choose the pics today

伴

photo shooting day

changing to another style

my make-up artist + hair stylist May

my photographer Ivan

another pic of us :)

两种老公 两种人生‏

A:她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。”

他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”

她：“算了。我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。他问“干吗去？”

她：“去接杯水。”

他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”

女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的 下半辈子交给你。 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去 吃饭。”

她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”

他：“改天吧！”

她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去

看球了啊。”

她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”

他：“怎么不高兴了？”

她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋 友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”

他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”

她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或 者你先去看。我们等你。”

他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己 跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”

她：“没事……”

没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一 下。我一会儿去接你。” 其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”

她：“几点回家？”

他：“九点之前肯定回家。”

九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”

他：“十点。肯定回家。”

十一点。十二点。一点。两点……

后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯 定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”

她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”

他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定 能！”

快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你 家了”

信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。

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A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。

他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。

她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。

他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。

他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”

她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过 衣服吗？”

他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后 你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。 哄她几句。她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给 你一个温暖的家。

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A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。

回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子。然后自己去收拾屋子。

回来的时候。她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴。就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。

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A:他说：“你是最好的。”

她问：“我哪好？”

他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”

她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”

她：“我哪好？”

他：“你对身边的每个人都很友 善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地 狱！”

她哭了。

一个人,是因为你对他好。所以觉得你好。

一个人。是因为懂得你的好。所以想要对你好。 

幸福的恋人。首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己。

5年2个月4天

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说 怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么

也许你也不懂

两个相爱的人
等着对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得 

爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空

走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

17.4.2010

5年2个月4天

感觉错了

我

说了不该说的话

Set My Priority!!

Soon

as in 

REAL SOON

i'm gonna delete my COMET BROWSER

FACEBOOK

BLOGs

YOUTUBE

no more

100% concentration 

on

REVISION

Wedding Dress-- TAEYANG

-first time ever i watch an MV again, again, n again..
-love it especially the 3:20 - 3:35 part...that's really cool *_*

Man U vs Chelsea

Today, we went to Secret Recipe for brunch. I ordered Spaghetti Bolognese n Actz ordered the Tom Yam Noodle. the Tom Yam was nice, n the spaghetti was nice, with the Tabasco chilli... >.*

as it was still early after we finished our dinner, Actz suggested to drive around the Bangsar area n admire those big houses n condos... we simply love doing that. there are so many beautiful n modern house... (=

after that, Actz sent me class n he waited for me at Old Town. my class started from 2pm to 7pm. he went to KL after i visited him during my break.
we went to Ali Maju for dinner, as Actz wanted to watch the "extremely important" match... n i wanted to eat the Kailan Belacan... it was niceeeeeeee... (=

we were suppose to join Ivy, Anne and the other friends to the Final Solution thing at CHC but since Actz wanted to watch the match n I will feel guilty if i dun acc him... cuz usually, i will go home after class n let him watch matches alone. + I'll be going to Ivy's house on Wednesday n put up a night over there... so, i decided to acc Actz..
well, i should say that he expected my companion when he told me that he can't make it to CHC..

coming back to the match, it was the first time ever that i watch a match. to this, i mean concentrating on it...
Chelsea was great, n i now witness how great is Drogba... no wonder Actz always says he's the Prince of Blue Soldiers..Lampard was cute 2..

to me, Man U was so... "bot giu si"... cuz if it wasn't the mistake they wont be able to get that goal.. (well, i'm not an expert so.... i'm just telling what i saw...) Yet, they were so cheap to be proud of the mistaken goal... lol... what a shame... waahahah....

oh... plus, if it wasn't the "super obvious" help from those referees, so obvious that i thk even "The Barbarian Fans" would agree in their heart though not admitting it cuz it was such a shame for having the "13th player" (quoted from Actz) in the team they support...

* i said so cuz the referee who was standing right in front the spot but was mentally blinded to have not seen what i saw-- the MU player deliberately used his leg to "hook" the C player's leg n made him fell down. Even if it can be argued that he did not deliberately do so, his subsequent action of using his hand to push the C player down 2 or 3 times would have corroborated what I've seen earlier in the same transaction.

Well, i should still say that, i'm just a lay woman with no any knowledge about football... lol.. so no point arguing with me if u dun agree with what i've just said. you might then ask, then what's the point of bull-shitting so much earlier on? well pals,

FREEDOM OF SPEECH

*.@

i apologize in advance

这一刻，别把它当成粗俗的言语；容我说一句：

他妈的我想结婚啊！！！

*都是那该死的压力所压迫成的遐想*

>.<

没那么简单

CLP

不容易呀

！！！！

"Another Day Has Gone"

After our dinner,

i hugged him from the back

 & tried to find a way 

to fit into his arm.

he then turn around,

took my left hand

n put his left hand on my waist.

we danced

he hummed this song

(=

P/S: he likes tonite's dinner

capsicum with minced pork + garlic pork in spicy sauce.

today's meals

***1

breakfast was TomYam maggie + tomato + rose lettuce + Pork Meatball

before class, lunch was Old Town's Teh Tarik + Mee Siam + thick toasted bread with condensed milk

after class, we had 记得吃 as our dinner today..was very happy (=
ordered Porridge, Yam Cake & shrimp wan tan noodle + Green Tea Honey Vinegar

thanks, dear... for sending me n fetching me back from class everyday... thanks for waiting me.. (= love u always n dearly!

“和而不同”

i posted this on my fb wall, n i dropped down my opinion about this phrase.

after knowing what this mean, Actz used it this way:

i was having my shower, but forgot to take my facial cleanser.

so i called out for help but he was playing his PSP football game.

being too concentrate on his game n feeling reluctant to stop his game to grab my facial cleanser for me...

he shouted back:  “和而不同”

i was thinking... what is that?!? i'm asking u to take my facial cleanser....

so, i asked him.

his answer was this: “我很想拿给你，但是我不能拿给你。。"

@.@    *lmao*

the proposal

I dreamt a dream

a dream that i always dream of

He proposed to me

Am wondering
when will this dream comes true

How I wish I'll never wake up 

from this dream I always dream of

Sharon ; "Kimora Lee "

i get to know Sharon Lee on Saturday. actually, i'd talked to her once or twice before. only get to know her name on Saturday when she saw me walking up the stairs at college and asked my name. On Sunday, she came to sit wif me as the air-cond in was blowing straight down to where she sat. she says i look like kimora...1st person other than my siblings who says i look like kimora lee...not sure whether i should be happy or not.. hahah..

was having a small talk with her on fb, and suddenly she said : "youre really pretty btw. lol. u can pull off any of kimoras outfits anyday!"
 +
lol. this might make me sound lesbo. but because i love watching the kimora reality series i keep looking at you all the time. hahahh...

Note: it's just a short post to remind myself boost my confidence, thr's smbody outside knows how to appreciate my beauty... :) Dun always say "i'm ugly...."

Family week in KL

been busy all these while... family came to visit KL, so I hafta be the tour guide.. :p

Monday
-went to fetch Melissa from KL Central. She went to Melaka for the Dancing Competition while my parents and grandparents have gone up to Awana Resort. I was late to KL Central and this timid sister of mine was scare to be waiting alone at KL Central. =.='

- after that, we went to Midvalley, ate Kim Gary. then walked around and bought some clothes for her -- her ultimate purpose of being in KL..

-went home around 6smthg, rest for awhile, showered, and went to Tropican City at about 8:30pm. Had GuaiLengGou at Gong Woh Tong, then went to SS2 for LukLuk.. it was NICEEEE~~ :)

-dad asked me to buy whatever she wants... ‘她要什么就买给她啦。明天跟爸爸讲买了多少钱爸爸给回你啦。。不要让她有遗憾’..=.=' i said... she's only 14 oh dad... how much 遗憾 will she have oh...
*well, my dad just loves her too much... *

- finally, she can come n put up a night at my place! (=


Tuesday
-woke up around 9am, then prepare for SHOGUN! met mom & dad at 1u, Melissa bought clothes, AGAIN. well, honestly, me & Amos were not so lucky compare to her. Branded stuff at this age.... could never imagine it happening on us when we were at her age...

-mom just couldn't wait till 12pm for the Shogun...

- after Shogun, walked around 1U again, this time, OLD WING.

- Off to Genting at 6pm.

- me & Sasa took a bubble bath!! (=

Mom took these photos for us~ =D

Wednesday
- Mom brought Grandma to KL to visit the Psychiatrist. Dad acc grandpa, Me n Actz brought Melissa to Genting.. luckily the Skyway wasn't too crowded or we'll get very frustrated.

- Marry Brown for lunch & Waffle + Starbucks as dessert... she simply knows how to enjoy her life....

- get back to Awana, cooked dinner for them at 4smthg... ate sm, and head back home cuz Actz gotta let his lecturer check on his assignment on the next day. bought a Sub of the day--- Meatball Sub.. our favourite...:)

-BTW, grandpa n mom walked us out to the Shuttle Bus stop. Grandpa has literally grown old... it was so hard for him who used to be so active to walk from the room to shuttle bus stop. :'(   Grandpa gave me RM200, ask me to buy some food... :)

- I went a drink with Cass at 9pm at SS2's 记得吃. -- Mango Sago + Yam Cake. I borrowed her my Equity & Tort Q&A instead of selling it to her... cuz i love that Q&A and my Company Law Q&A so much that i threw away my bra, shirt & belt when my luggage was overweight at UK. Dun ask me why I love those books, cuz I myself dun even have a clue for it...



Thursday
-took T634 & LRT to KL Central, cuz dad and Melissa wanna go to Midvalley. Actz has class & need to consult his lecturer.
- this pampered sister,wanted to have the NIKE ADIDAS sport shoes. >.< for sure, I wont let her buy it cuz she has had so many of them in her closet & shoe rack. + I just gave her my Nike pants which I bought at York.

-and my dad kept looking for the Sony Ericson cuz her youngest daughter who is so so clumsy and CAN easily break her new HP desperately WANT (cf. NEED) a new HP.

-Actz came to join us and we went to Kim Gary for lunch. for this, Melissa was being thoughtful for not insisting her DOMINO'S. she said, "ok lar.. we go to Kim Gary, baba has not try it before"... :)

- after Kim Gary, she wants her BIG APPLE. so we bought 2 pieces of the doughnut. + she bought 200g of Famous Amos. 


-they were manage to catch the 6pm bus to go back to Awana. I went to 6:30pm Evidence tut... but left at 8pm cuz i felt that my head was close to the explosion state...  perhaps, i drank too little water..

DENTIST

24 Feb 2010 去看牙医。

这是我２３年来，

第二次看牙医。

上次在 General Hospital 看，

牙医随便看了看就说：

"nice teeth! just need to maintain it!"

但是，牙齿还是常常流血，

大牙最后那里还是常常会通。

妈咪说是在长智慧牙，

我总觉得智慧牙没可能长这么久都还没长完。

这次去了James Ku 的牙医所。

我有两颗烂牙，但只是表面的烂。

一颗在上面，一颗在下面。

总听别人说补牙很痛。

所以牙医说要和我补牙时，

我可是怕得要命！

不能咬紧牙根，

我就只好握紧拳头。

从听到那吱吱吱的声音开始，

我就把手抓得紧紧。。。

等着打麻痹针，

等着钻牙齿。。。

等啊等地。。。

“好了！”

好了？？

针也没打就已经补好了。。。

都不到１０分钟叻。。。

过后，牙医说要洗牙。。

我就问他是不是会洗到牙齿变白的那种。。

结果不是。。。

挑挑刺刺，流血。。

ＲＭ２２０

〉。<

That night.

had a good talk on Wednesday night.
it has been a long while that we didn't have such conversation,
telling each other the feeling deep down inside our heart.


something he said that touches my heart:
- as I keep saying that how i feel is not important, as long as he is happy, that would suffice. I knew that all these while, he'd been longing to have a happy reunion with his high-school buddies. yet, jealousy attacks though i clearly know that i wont be envy or need him to be by my side when i'm back to tawau.

*He told me that, unless he doesn't love me anymore, otherwise, my feeling is what he cares the most. Even though I might not be unhappy about his outing with his fren, what i feel at this very moment is what he cares.

- recalled what i did at The Curve's Kim Gary last Sunday night.  I was very angry and speak very harsh + loud. I know I shouldn't do that. Just because of that very 1 sentence that he replied “不开心的是你”, it triggers my anger. In fact, we both were too tired after the Genting trip.

* He said he was looking at me all the time, watching the way I talk happily about the food on the menu. He didn't talk much cuz he was very tired. out of his expectation, I just get angry in a sudden, and start talking loudly when he asked me why. He nearly shouted at me, but he didn't. and he was thinking to scold me when we get back to the car (which he did not do that).
- Indeed, i know it's seriosly not easy to have tolerate with that sudden anger of my, when all the while he thought I was happy.

* we've been together for nearly 5 years, there's alot that we've been through. *

that's who i am.

whatever it is 

whatever it will be..

i don't care.

cuz nobody cares

who am i

how i feel

what a shyt.

they they they

all this world is about

them

i'm nobody to be cared for

that's who i am.

accept it or not

face it.

...

我体谅的爱

别当作应该

P/S: S.A.D. attacks

P/SS: S.A.D. in M'sia?

P/SSS: whatever.

2 2 = 饿饿 （=

Blue_JumpMan said:
bibi...
xiao fui 22...

:(

~sυммεя_ρυzzLε~™ said:
huh?
wat is tat?
 
Blue_JumpMan says:
 22...

~sυммεя_ρυzzLε~™ says:
 wat is 22?

Blue_JumpMan says:
  no la...

~sυммεя_ρυzzLε~™ says:
  :(

Blue_JumpMan says:
  ..
  2 2

做到这些时再叫他老公吧

男朋友在乎你的体重有没有升；老公在乎你今晚有没有吃饱

男朋友在乎你今天打扮的够不够漂亮；老公在乎你今天穿的那么少会不会冻着

当你遇到困难的事情时候，男朋友会安慰你；老公会在第一时间赶到

男朋友在乎你今天开心过没有；老公会在乎你今天遇到不开心的事没有

男朋友只给你买漂亮的时装；老公给你买温暖的羽绒服

男朋友和哥们吃饭不会想你在干什么 吃饭怎么办；老公和哥们吃饭会不踏实 时不时给你发信息，一遍遍告诉你他很快就会回来

如果你够漂亮，男朋友会考虑要不要把你带给他的朋友看，长长面子：如果你不够漂亮，你的老公走到哪都会带着你，也许你没有勇气，但是他会给你鼓励。

男朋友的家人如果不喜欢你，他会放弃你：老公的家人如果不喜欢你，他会尽自己最大的努力去保护你。

男朋友觉的你们不合适，他会走开，即使他还喜欢你；如果全世界都觉得你们不合适，可是你的老公还是会守候你。

男朋友只会限于他所认为的人知道你的存在；老公会告诉整个世界：你是他的宝贝。

男朋友打完电话会急急挂掉；老公会等你挂断，他才会挂断。

男朋友会在你烦闷的时候让你自己静静；老公会留下来跟你吵架，帮你发泄。

男朋友在你特殊的几天里会躲着你；老公会在那几天给你冲热水，给你讲笑话。

男朋友会把你说分手当真；老公会在你说分手之后挽留你，因为他知道你希望被挽留，并不想走。

男朋友会在自己有能力的范围内满足你；老公会付出一切都要满足你，即使满足不了，他还是会尽最大努力。

男朋友想的明天和未来很少；老公会把你们以后的宝宝名字都取好。

男朋友不敢给承诺，给了也未必做到。老公敢于做出了承诺，而且一定会做到。

男朋友不敢相信你们的爱情；老公会把娶你当做他的人生目标，并且渴望和你一起变老。

亲爱的朋友们，当你觉得他做到这些时再叫他老公吧！
因为老公才是这个世界上真正爱你的男人

- the one in pink, i'm not sure

- the two in light blue, he didn't do...
- those in purple, he fulfilled them..

so, is he still my hubby?? =.8

走在红毯那一天

我 无所谓

我无所谓 

我伤过心 

掉过泪

太多的人

太少的爱

我永远都不会是

第一个

被想起的那一位

但是又何奈

所以

都无所谓了

:(

TIRED 

of

CLASSES

GIMME

a

BREAK

A

CNY

&

5th

anniversary

without

U

what

more

can

I

do

?