我可以约定你，明年圣诞节一起过吗？
我不需要在纽约，我不需要在伦敦，
只要和你一起；我哪里都无所谓

24。12。2008， 阴天。
现在在火车上，CARDIFF － READING。在CARDIFF 2天2夜， 和我很要好的朋友－培一起。是我在这假期里至今最开心的日子。在READING，不是很开心，我也不想在这儿多提。希望能把它忘了，不开心的就让它过去，珍惜眼前的每一天。待会儿，就要赶着把留在READING的东西收拾收拾，因为我要赶紧离开那儿，到BRISTOL去。希望在BRISTOL 也能有个愉快的假期。

培有送我一张圣诞卡， “Esther, This is the first time we can play together abroad!! I’m really excited ‘bout it as you’re my best friend!! The 1st time, I can enjoy days with my best friend at here. ^-^. That’s the different feeling, though I know that you would be happier if Nyap were here. But, no worries!! I think the happiness will go to you as your brother will celebrate x’mas with you!! May God Bless you, 圣诞快乐! Friendship Forever!! From Peei, 2008. Wish you Merry Christmas!!”

I really miss you, my dear. I really hope that you are by my side now. Yet, I’m independent enough now. As you know, I don’t use to travel or go out alone, ‘cause I’m afraid of being alone, I scare the feeling of loneliness. But now, I’m used to it. I can go to many places, alone, by myself, without any companion. I’m not sure whether I should be proud of it, but the one thing that I’m sure about is, though u’re not here right now, u’re always in my heart. I’m really glad that I have you, and I love you very much. Never will I wanna be so far from you, anymore. and if you could, promise me that u wont be so far from me anymore.
i love u dearly, Actz.

p/s: 只要心是近的，无论多远的距离， 都是短的

你

让我相信，

除了我爸爸之外，

这世上还有像他一样的好男人。

29 Nov 2008

waking up at 10:30am, i saw msgs which.. i dun really like to read in the morning like this. well, it was settled anyway... went back to sleep, till 12:30pm. I juz love the blanket i use in m'sia. love it so so so much. mayb bcuz there's his odor. i like it very much. give me a peace of mind, i feel secure. :) i love u, my dear.

I made myself English Breakfast, again. i'm kinda addicted to it... :

after tat, watch some drama, and read some articles for juris assignment. I totally have no idea wat's Hart's Concept of Law, and Dworkin's arguments against Hart. I mean.. i'm not interested in it.. why do i have to know? well.. ok... cuz i wanna complete my Law degree.. tat's y i hafta at least... do this assignment, and in order to do it, i need to know. fine.. I STILL HAFTA DO IT.. no matter how.. Stop blaming and get started!!! or i wont be able to present it on the 4th Juris seminar... and this doesn't sounds good at all.

it's Dong Dong's Birthday. and.. we're planning to have our dinner out. Me and Chen Mo, we'd waited for quit a while, until 7:45pm chen mo went to DD and KY's room and found no body thr, we start calling them. Guess where were they.. unsurprisingly, DRINKING.....DD din pick up her call and so, she ask me to call KY. called him twice but nobody answer the call, but he later called me back.

we went for our dinner at about 9pm... can you imagine how hungry am i? hmmmm... the English B.fast with some crackers until 9pm.. Well.. it's ok.. we don't need to walk there, we went there by taxi, and the SPANISH DINNER was EXCELLENT!!

before getting our seat, we hafta wait for 15 minutes, and... they drank again.. haHaha.. non-stop drinking from 5:30pm.. i din drink... cuz.. i wanna eat my dinner. The atmosphere of the place was nice.. oh yea.. the name of the Spanish Restaurant is -- La Tasca. it's near the Newcastle Famous Bridge, a very nice place with high class restaurant and bar around. KY said tat Michael Owen also go to the Bar opposite La Tasca.

well, i'm not gonna say much, let the pics do the talking. :)

we had some dessert as well.. Dark and White chocolate Cheesecake and Orange Sorbet.. I like the Cheesecake soooooooooooo much~~~~~~~~~~~~ orange sorbet was nice either. oh yea.. throughout the dinner, our drink was 2 jugs of Traditional Sangria... it was nice.. (made of fruits, red wine and.. some other liquid.. very nice and sweet).

Thanks Dong Dong for the treat. (in fact, i tot we were to treat the b'day boy a meal.. who knows.. he foot the bill which cost 80.42 quids, thanks. )

after La Tasca, we went to AS YOU LIKE IT, which is a bar near to our house... went there, sit for a while, then we went home. Enjoy the nite alot~ :)

P/S: wish to enjoy the Spanish Dinner with you, Actz. Wish to see you asap, wish to travel around Europe with you... just you..

P/S : I LOVE YOU

there are million billion ppl in this world,

and it's not easy for me to find a man like him,

who loves and cares for me so much...

and i dun wanna lose him...

this is not my first love,

i'd tried diff kind of r'ships

and i dun really need to search around

and try other guys to prove it to myself tat he's the one........
but to make my dreams come true...

there are alternatives.

the connection between one person wif another..

is very chemical..
when u add smthg in,

it reacts differently...
and i'm afraid of adding in the wrong thing..

16 November 2008

This morning, I went to church with Erica and Irene. I met Erica at the library, around 11am. and then, we walk to the Jesmond Parish Church after Irene joined us. The church was... juz like wat we usually saw in those movies, typical English church. And for me, that's interesting!!

In fact, we planned to have a bowl of spicy noodle for our lunch at Curry Capital. If you can finish the bowl, then the food is free! and you can get a certificate for it. However, the shop will only be open at 6:30pm every sunday. So, we went to Lao's buffet.

The Curry Capital

Lau's buffet

after lunch, i went to shop around. bought 3 shirts from H & M... I took 4 shirts to try, and all fits me nicely. However, due to credit limit, i can only buy 3 of them... i din choose the 4th bcuz, it's a sexy pyjamas.. and... i don't really need it... hahaha..... after tat, i walked home.

when i get home, i show my dear all my new clothes thru webcam... and he says i look good in them, but he's worry... hahaha... take it easy, baby... my every beauty is for u, and only you... cuz u deserve it. :) i wanna bring out all the best things within me, and they are ALL for you! :)

my babe sleep at 7am m'sia time. bcuz of me. he wanna make thgs clear, and set out some "rules". and, i guess i'd hurt him. Baby, i'm sorry. But, i really did nth... :)

when we were talking thru skype, he said "i warn you, dun u ever go clubbing anymore. If you wanna be my gf, u better dun let me find out that u do anything that betray me.." at tat moment, i was shocked... why wil he suddenly say such thing..

after my dinner, i came up immediately and wanna talk to him again, but he was on call with his fren... this is d 1st time he choose not to talk wif me, but with his fren. fine. it's ok... but, relating all wat had happened, i doubted.... whether he was angry with me, or he was indeed, talking to a girl.... but i dun thk it will be the second one.. cuz i know he loves me much.

when he ended his conversation with his fren, he talk to me. he asked me to rmb tat, he is my bf. and keep asking me not to hide thgs from him. if he found that out, he will never forgive me. however, if i have any guy tat i like, i can juz tell him. he doesn't care if i have anyone i like or i have another bf, but these can only happen when he's not with me anymore. These harsh words, made me scare... and wonder wat makes him say so... i did nth but only chat wif frens... when i said "okey", he said... "when i saw u say okey, it means a lot to me." Babe, don't be too jumpy, k? and this reaction makes me sad... cuz i felt that you're hurt. my heart bleed, if u are hurt... don't be unhappy... i love you. .

he said he knew tat i have a close guy fren, a guy who can make me smile when we chat... and when i told him tat, yea.. i have a close guy fren... he said.. "now you tell me the truth, and u piss me off." i wanted to explain.. but he say i'm bullshitting... he doesn't wanna listen to me.. however, wif my kind of attitude, i sure will find a way to explain and make it clear, if i'm not guilty. I DID NOTHING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!

Do you thk tat i can juz forget the things happened between us within these 4 years and start another relationship with another person who i barely know? I'm not such a person. 4 years, it's not a short period of time. and it takes lotsa effort and hard work to maintain this 4-year r'ship. NOT EASY AT ALL. and you should've know tat, you're IRREPLACEABLE. i know i'm kinda bad temper, i'm sorry if sometimes i hurt your feeling, but i will not, never ever ever ever i want to replace you with another person. NO!

what happens within these 4 years, the memories we'd built up for ourselves, it's not tat easy to be forgotten. I'm not having my first love right now. and babe, I want you to know tat, i really don't need to go all around the world, and find other ppl to assure my love for you. I know who is truthful and truly love me much. I do know, and i'm sure that, nobody else tat i want to spend the rest of my life with, other than YOU. what more can I ask, despite to have you in my life, and willing to spend the rest of your life with me, my WINNER...

我看了我们一起拍的照片。

忽然之间，很想让你，

让全世界知道，

我很喜欢你。

我很喜欢我属于你。

我很喜欢我有你。

我很庆幸我是你的，

我属于你。

I just can't believe that

you're seeing me as such a person.
3 years and 9months we've been together,
can't you tell what kind of person I am?

I love you so much,
that I just couldn't,
never ever can I afford the risk of losing you.
and how would I do such thing?

It does matter to me,
the words you'd spoken.
'cuz I just don't want you to view me as such a person!
Can you understand?
It hurts me alot, when you say so.

Our love, and where's you trust?

Right here waiting

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted,

all the times

That I thought would last

somehow

I hear the laughter,

I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' crazy

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance

Oh,can't you see it baby

You've got me going crazy

I feel so lonely.
nobody to talk with in the middle of the night.
I know .. what i need is SPIRITUAL strenght.
It was because I'm thirsty,
and need to be fed with spiritual food.

However, I just don't know what to do.
Where to look for a church...
could anybody just bang into me and say...
"hey, let me bring you to church!"
God.. I'll be very thankful.

Hull Trip 1

Me in my new jersey, and my Classic Burger with Chips!
Zoom in of my Classic Burger

Amos with his chilli corn beef and nacho. Zoom in
Me, Amos and friends.

What would I say if I were to say a vow?

Actz, I think about you all day long.

and when I'm not near you,

all I think about is being near you.

And when you are near me,

I feel like I'm at peace with the whole world.

I know that I'll never have to ask God for anything,

'cause, as long as I have you in my life,

I got everything I ever wanted.

The only thing that I really wanna do is just

spend the rest of my life making you as happy as you've made me.

Because I love you, Actz.

I love you.

Newcastle Life photo 2

i love you 2!
what a cute and lovely image~~ hehe

13 Oct 2008, on the way home from uni.

Actz, I saw the guy wearing AJ !!! hehe~~

you can wear yours when you come here!!

view of lecture hall

this is the window of a house which i will pass by when i go to uni. there is a tree inside the house!! haha... can you see into the window? it's not a reflection but a real tree inside the house!

My bed, my doggy, and mirror in my room.

another view of my room, with desk.


doggy and my laptop bag, taken at Dubai airport.

It wasn't a good day, perhaps it should be. Money shouldn't have been the matter, and it shouldn't have messed up my day!!!!

MONEY!!!!!

I hate it... no.. not really.. if i hate it, i'll not be so unhappy with the fact that i have to spend it away!!! so.. basically, it's same logic as what people say... " i don't hate u... if i hate you, tat's mean i love and cares for you!"

WHY???? why do we need money to value the things we have? why do we need money to buy things? even though money can't buy everything, but without money, u can juz DIE!!!! cuz without money, no one will allow to live on this earth!!! even beggers need money!! even the poor needs money!~~~ everyone needs MONEY!!!! money is so important.. sigh~~

if-----
if money is so important, why can't christ be the same? mayb...human's nature.. we can only c the things and needs of now. future things... even prophets.... can't really see the things that are too far away.... wat more if... ETERNITY!

sigh... i dun understand.. why does a pack of rice can cost us GBP 20+.... why?? is it coated with gold? i just dun understand... please please please...

In fact, i've got a question... i just couldn't understand why. there was a story about a girl.

One day, the girl went to church and heard a message... about tithes and offering. The Rev. said :
when you take money too seriously, and care too much about money that you rather keep it to yourself and not offering it, then, you're taking money as BIGGER than GOD!". Money was given by God to us. Because of his grace, we have money to live. and when it comes to the time to return the money to God, and God only ask for the 10% money given to us to be returned, we should never doubt. Those are God's money and not ours. If we keep it to ourselves and not giving it back to God, it's just same as ROBBING God's money!!!! (How serious this offence is!)

another example given was... "If on Friday night, you rather attend your sibling's birthday party than knowingly absent from cell group, then you're taking your family as more IMPORTANT than GOD!"

well, the girl knew that taking money more serious than God is sinning against God. she knew this since very young. Somehow, she still take money as very very serious and personal. She tried to catch some loopholes which she can escape from giving tithes and offers. For example, seperating tithes from offers, or giving tithes in one goal and stop offering for a month. In fact, she knew that this doesn't please God. Nothing happens.

However, when she heard the sermon, she start to think deeply, and she decided to tithe 10% of the money given by her grandparents and uncle aunties. For that time, it can be said that, that was the very first time she did not think of escaping from her obligation to tithe and offer. She tithe, with all her heart. Praying that God will forgive her and will help her in the future, as she is going abroad to further her studies. And she believe with all her heart, with no doubts, that God will for sure, take care of all her needs. And, as it was told that when you tithe, you can challenge God even though it was told that we cannot challenge God. But in the sermon, it truly and clearly mentioned that, you can challenge God, when you tithe. God will provide you with the things you need.... and.. most importantly... PROVIDE YOU MORE THAN YOU ASK OR EXPECTED TO RECEIVE!!!! holding on this promise, she asked for God's blessing to be upon her when she goes abroad, and provide her with more than she expect.

She doubted now. Why? Why does she not only get nothing from her prayer, but also lose the things she has? If you answer that, because God doesn't exist, then you're wrong! TOTALLY WRONG! cuz she had in her life time experienced God's mercy and grace ! She had in her life time experience the TRUE AND LIVING GOD that she was so fearful of God! God was so real that she just couldn't believe that every prayer that she made, GOD ANSWERED!!!! but why this no longer happens? WHY?

2 of xxx TESTIMONIES:
1. she prayed that : "I want to follow my friends to Genting Highland for convention." God answered her prayer and let her mother allow her to go.
2. she prayed that : " I hope I can get the from sit in the flight!" God does not only answered her prayer but also... amazingly, and... miracle happens... she was invited to sit with the Capten of the flight and see them do the flight landing! Isn't this amazing?


Then why not God answer her prayer when she encounter problems now?

I wonder why, too.


P/S: no matter how doubtful I am, I'm grateful that God has given you in my life.
Love you, Actz!

I love this song!!
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=JUCGwiuV1x8


Man, I like this as well!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bInuMtpnlXU&NR=1

some pics about life in NEWCASTLE UPON TYNE (1)

My First Starbuck HOT MOCHA in Northumbria University (cuz i was 'fishing' during the EU law class at 2pm since my class start at 9am and i couldn't stand it. so, quickly grab this so that i wont fish again during Property 2 class.)

Tuesday morning, on my way to Uni.

Me and Janet waiting at Lloyds TSB.

(waited for 1+3hours to open an account but ended up with the name on the bank letter issued by the Uni was wrong!)

on my way to Lloyds TSB

ACTZ, I MISS YOU!

just wanna shout as loud as i could!

i really miss you!

misses you so much so much!!

ACTZ, I MISS YOU!

i miss the time when we were together at KL,

i miss the time when we always go shopping together,

crossing the fingers tightly,

walking happily together,

watching movie together.

i miss that every morning seeing your face,

your smile lightens up my everyday.

holding hands we go uni ,

from SPB tower, to Jalan Kasah, and Desa Kiara.

everyday are so precious to me.

i miss the time when i wait for you to finish your class,

coming out and your eyes are on me,

letting me know that i'm the only one,

the only girl that you're looking forward to see.

i miss the time when i finish class,

you're there waiting for me,

walking towards you make me feel that i'm lonely;

knowing that someone is willing to be there for me.

i miss the time when i was sad,

your shoulder will never quit from its task,

holding me tightly in your arms,

ensuring me that i can rely on you.

i miss the time when i was happy,

you are always there waiting me to share;

seeing me smile you will be happy,

i'm glad that you're there to be with me.

i miss the time when i get angry,

u'll try your very best to make me happy;

with every tricks that you had tried,

you say that only food can make me happy.

Now i'm here alone with doggy,

crying alone emotionally,

and nobody is there for me.

No reason for me to cry,

and I guess,

missing you is the only way to explain.

sorry for being unreasonable,

sorry for being busybody.

sorry for making you unhappy,

thanks for accompanying me everynite.

Actz, my dear

i miss you much.

hope the time will soon past fast,

so that i can see you again,

having you is the greatest thing i'd ever had.

3 oct'08 Friday

Class start at 12pm and i start walking to uni at 11:30am. She was a very good lecturer, made this clear and straight to the point. I can easily understand. We learnt the types of TRUST today. after the class finish at 1pm, i go to Lloyds bank, again, to get my account opened. I waited for 30minutes, which was a much more shorter waiting time than Wednesday (i've waited for 4hours= morning 1hour + afternoon 3hours, and get to know that my name in the letter was wrong. It should be Zhu Yun Liang, but not Liang Zhu Yun. The uni.... my~~my~~ as if it was their first time to issue a bank letter. i've filled up my Last name wif Liang, and First name as Zhu Yun... I wonder why will they get it wrong and why does the Bank staff after checking my letter on Monday did not tell me about the mistake. UK?? I tot everything will be better than Malaysia.. sorry to say : OUT OF MY EXPECTATION... well, at the end of the day.. who am i to EXPECT? haha.. )

Around 1:30pm everything were done and i went to GREGGS to buy my savouries for tonite, tmr morning and sunday morning. Then, i walked back to the Uni to attend Company Law class.. If you ask me what was today's Company Law lecture about? i'll just say... i watch YOUTUBE.. haha.. anyway, it added me new knowledge. ''WHAT'S a CORPORATION"... a person says that.. i forgot wat his post is, he says that.. he thks corporation is a kind of business community.. business... dunno wat and wat.. and..

Corporation was said to be the Pathology of Commerce. In the film, they use the Personal Diagnosis Checklist of WHO to analyse the corporations.
1. Callous unconcern for the feeling of others.
2. Incapacity of maintain enduring relationship.
3. Reckless disregard for the safety of others.
4. Deceitfulness: repeated lying and conning others for profit.
5. Incapacity to experience guilty.
6. Failure to conform to social norms with respect to lawful behaviours.
Diagnosis of Personality Disorder: Psychopath.

the day i leave to uk

At KLIA before I leave to UK

23Sept2008 Tuesday

This morning, we woke up early cuz i need to go to Wisma MCA to get my UK visa. It's finally ready for collection. And so, Tonight i'm going to UK. :( Actz was suppose to go to college, to check something. But seems I'm leaving tonight, he decided to accompany me to do my thgs.

We went to KL Central by cab cuz we hafta withdraw money and then go to Wisma MCA by LRT (Ampang Park Station). It took about 30minutes to get it and while i'm waiting for my turn, i received a msg from Actz (he was wainting for me downstair at Secret Recipe), saying that 'the meatball spaghetti looks delicious'. Haha.. we both were hungry.

HOwever, we hafta go to the MSL travel agent office to endorse my ticket for tonight. So, we went to PWTC there... Janet also. We waited quite long as well. In fact, we could be 3 times faster but bcuz of a fren. she has 2 tickets need to be endorse but juz couldn't wait for her turn. keep wanting to squeeze in with us and make the whole process god damn long. PEOPLE, HAVE YOU EVER LEARN TO QUEUE AND WAIT FOR UR TURN!!!! juz get so frustrated!!!!

Well, After the agent re-issued the ticket, they ask her to change the date of return. stupid. only the process of re-print the ticket it ard took 20 mintues. when they get the ticket they stil wanna ask ppl to re-print it??? my goodness. I juz ask the agent to give me mine and i leave as fast as i could.

we then went to midvalley and ate Little Taiwan. Actz was unhappy cuz i ordered the wrong meal for him. :( sorry. then we went to Post Office to post the documents and my HP back to Tawau so that melissa can use it. Then, we went in to Jusco to buy some biscuits and Mr.Potato so that Actz can eat it when he wants.

We went home after that, and watched 1 episode of Jia Hao Yue Yuan and then bath.

my luggage was packed but it was 35kg when i weight it.. so i was force to take out alot of things. and it became 31kg. Who knows.. when weight it at the airport, it was only 26.4kg!!! gosh!!! wasted!

When we were at the airport, we ate KFC as i really wish to eat it long long ago. Actz accompany me until 11:30pm , which is until i go into the boarding hall.

Will c you 8mths later... Don't forget to come to Newcastle!! Love you!

27 Sept 08 Saturday

This morning I woke up early (7:15am) and talked with Actz thru skype. When the line became limited and no connectivity, I called Melissa's hp but no body pick it up. So, I called home and talk with mom and dad and Melissa.. Miss them much.

After I restart it, it can connect again. So, I chat wif Melissa in MSN and she says that she'll go to play badminton with her fren. Mom and Dad will be alone at home then... I do chat wif Actz, too.

then i went to brush teeth and take bath. After getting done, chat wif Actz again and then went to have my breakfast---- Skimmed Milk and Ham, Iceberg, Tomato with Wholegrain Bread. When I went back to my room, I saw Crystal was in her room and I asked her to bring me to the post office as I need to post the FD Agreement to Amos. I thought it would cost GBP 30++ and so I quickly call Amos. Who knows.. hehe.. the GBP30 is only the insurance coverage. haha The posting cost only GBP 1.24.. hehe

After that, we went to City Centre. I bought a pink long robe and a long sleeve shirt at Primark and that cost me GBP 10. And then we went to Foot Locker, they have the AJ countdown pack 7/16. I was very excited to see that but it's more expensive then USA. It is GBP 199.90 for the whole package. US only USD 310.

Euro Exclusive-- Air Jordan Shoe


p/s: now then i understand how Actz feel when we go for shopping, only he himself is looking at those AJ and I only sit there. Sorry dear...

At Fenwick, I bought the McVities Classic Rich Tea cuz I really wish to eat biscuit.. haha. it's 69p.
then at the Monument Building, I help Actz to buy the England Jersey as it was 80% off. The Jersey is with Lampard's name and numbered 8 (GBP 10.99). I do bought 1 as well cuz it's really cheap (GBP 8.49). After we buy some fruits from the hawker, we went home. (I bought Strawberries- GBP1.60, Pears 6 for GBP1, and Nectarines 4 for GBP1.20. Among these, I share the Pears and Nectarines with Janet.)

We have Fried rice as our dinner. (Rice, port sausage, dried shrimp, egg, Maggie Soya Sauce, pepper, sesame oil, oyster sauce and Nando's Garlic Peri-peri). It taste good!!

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About Actz.

Today, he also stay at home to upload pictures for his assignment. Unitl around 8pm, he went to TTDI plaza to watch football with Bah. get home at around 11:30pm. Sleep at 2:00pm.

26 Sept 08 Friday
Today me and Janet went to Uni at 10am to get our timetable and bank letter. However, only the bank letter is ready. So, we went to Morrison to get some grocerries. We walked a long way to get there. On the way, we saw the Quayside Bridge and some other buildings. It took us about 20minutes to get there. There were a lot of people, and there are many things. :) I love shopping for GROCERY!!! haha..

The price shown were 1 2, 2.5... buy 1 free 1... etc... but they're all in STERLING POUND!!! how good if there're in RINGGIT MALAYSIA~~ sure i can buy a lot~~ hahaha after an hour shopping, we took our brunch at Morrison Cafe. Then, we wanna go home. As the things that we bought are not little and heavy, so we were trying to get home by bus. I tried to ask 2 buses but they're not passing by Sandyford Road!!! Gosh.. SO, we hafta carry the things and walk home. IT's such a long long way with heavy thgs.

We were wondering if we could take a short cut but we dare not to cuz we're afraid that if we lost ourselves, it will be more more suffering. So, we just follow exactly how we get there, which is to walk back to uni. It was about 2:10pm and so, we tried to go and get our timetable from the uni. IT"S NOT READY YET!!!!! they ask us to get back at 3pm. we went home and unpack the goods we bought and wait til 3pm. 3 pm, we go again but on the way there, almost arrive the School of Law Building, we saw our frens and they said that the timetable is not ready yet. Hafta wait until they notify us thru e-mail.

I REALLY WALKED A LOT TODAY~~ so, i was very very tired at nite and sleep at 11:30pm.

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About Actz

Today, he just stay at home and trying to get his assignment done.

24Sept2008

Today, me, Janet and Crystal went to uni at 10 something to enrol our (me and Janet) subject as we weren't able to enrol it yesterday due to the lack of documents. Since I haven't eat anything from yesterday 3 something, I was verAfter that, we went to city centre. It wasn't so cold today... :). I went to FOOT LOCKER and saw the Air Jordan 1 women.

sooooooooo nice.. i love it.. hhehe.. but dun hv extra money to buy it... I Wanna do part time job!!

Oh my god... I just love it.. Actz, I guess I really know how much u love your AJs... :)



At 2:30pm, we walked back.


I bought a prepaid card today... TALK MOBILE. GBP20 credit. and.. nothing else other than FOOD. Breakfast eat sandwiches (GBP 2.50), lunch eat Ceaser Club, which is bagel with some chickent meat, bacon, tomato and rocket with ceaser dressing (GBP 3) and dinner is Mexican Chicken Pie (GBP 0.99) wif a cup of Nescafe. :)

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About Actz

Today, he went to Midvalley wif Sua. Have their dinner at McD and then went to TTDI Plaza to play pool (RM20+ parking fee RM5/h). then, sua went to his house and he "educated" him about his AJs... about 3am then he start to talk wif me..

1st day in Newcastle.

I've arrived at Newcastle today (24 Sept 2008, local time 12:10pm). I stil can't feel that i'm in United Kingdom. I still can't believe that i'm finally here to study. I thought I'm in USA, like last dec, for holiday.

The schedule of the flight was KL (depart: 12:55am, 24Sept 2008) - Dubai (depart: 7:20am, 24Sept 2008) - Newcastle (arrive : 12:10pm). when we arrived at Newcastle International Airport, at the UK Border, we hafta let them check our passport. Koh Yen Yang and Crystal was there waiting for us. from Airport to the place we live, it cost GBP 15.

The house was very very messy as it now being refurbish. The room I chose is located at the 1st floor (with a ground floor). It was very very messy, too. I spent the whole night cleaning up the place. AFternoon, we went to the Uni trying to enrol our sebject but we din bring the result transcript and fail to enrol. :( then, we went to the town, and there was a Foot Locker shop. I was very very excited as I knew that there might be some AJs that Actz like. However, they were hungry and so, didn't manage to go in. Dear, don't worry. sure i'll help you to get into the shop and check out whether they have the "SEA GLOW" or your AJs. :)

We had our lunch at a chinese restaurant. It cost GBP48 for 5 person but me and Janet do not need to pay. :)
AFter that, we went to Wilkinson, quite far actually but luckily the weather is cool. If we're in Malaysia, I guess this will never happen ( I mean, walkgin for such a long distance). We took cab back to home and it cost GBP 5. At Wilkinson, I bought a purple glass, 2 pillows and 1 doublebed size quilt and a quilt cover which cost a total of GBP 21.65.

when we get home, we start to clean up the rooms. Throw all the unwanted things that was left behind, and I vacuumed the carpet in my room.. it's so hard to be cleaned.

I;m Exhausted now. I miss you, Actz! Doesn't feel good to do things alone. I need you to be here... Miss you badly.

I pray that everything is fine with you and my family.

(Malaysia time 7:07am , 25Sept 2008)
(UK time 12:06am, 25 Sept 2008)

3 years 7 month

(13 Sept'08 saturday

today is our 3 years and 7 month anni~~ hehe (but Actz was a bit sick today.. sore throat + flu)
we din go anywhere today, just stay at home and tried to clean the room, but the vacuum wasn't working well.

at night, we went to TTDI with Bah cuz they wanna watch football.we were there from around 7pm till 2am.I watch the "ming zhong zu din wo ai ni"... we ordered 1 tomyam meehoon, 1pattaya fried rice, 1 milo ice and 2 honey lemonade, 2 chicken wings... (these are the things me and Actz ate, not include Bah)

when we moved out to the open space area, Actz sit opposite me. He said i look pretty,... :) so happy. and he touched my face, pinch my nose.. :) ( Bah was there) I felt so blissful.. hehe... cuz never expected him to do such things when there were someone around~~
hehe

9 Sept' 08

Actz has class this mornign, and i went to Wisma MCA alone to apply my visa. from Desa Kiara to Wisma MCA, costs RM15 and from there to KPD A, RM9... not too expensive lar..haha..
I saw Eva there and talked with her..

The person told me i have to wait minimum 7 working days and maximum 15 working days to get my visa. when i heard that, i was ... BLANKED.... i can't listen wat was she trying to tell me and wat was in my mind was " WAT!!?!???!!?!? minimum 7 WORKING DAYS??!?!?! MY GOD!!!"

i don't know what to do. i asked her wehther there is any way to make it faster she say "NO WAY!" God, please help me!!!

After i get out from there, i went to Wisma Help to do the withdrawal thingy. Janet and Fei erh were there. then, went to KPD a to wait for Actz. we went to pavilion and watch Zohan, quite funny and when we wne to sg. wang, we found a shop, selling second hand stuff, got AJs... Actz paid RM50 deposit for the AJ 1... and the original AJ 1 was RM1500..

today, i wore the dress Actz bought for me as my birthday present last year.

Dear, i love you.

8 Sept'08 Monday

This morning I woke up quite early cuz there were many things i've gotta do. Mom cooked the abolone oat porridge. It taste good. and i made myself a glass of papaya milk. SOOOOOOO full...
After that, Amos accompany me to SK LO's clinic to have the Hepatitis A and Meningococcal injection, and to take my blood test report.

After that, we went to look for dad to get my things and then went to ICE WORLD to wait for mom's colleague to sent us the Land Title. after we get it, we went home and i start to type in those msgs which are in my hp into my laptop, cuz gonna let Melissa use the phone after i leave. So good.. i need to wait until dunno how old to have my own hp.

when Sasa came home from school, i cook the maggie and mic with sesame oil and oyster sauce. She love it very mcuh!!! :) we went up to our room, and she start to do her revision cuz the next day is her BIG DAY!!!! UPSR!!! i know she can do it very well. :)

we took bath together at 3:20pm and was ready to go at 4:20pm.. dad, mom, bro, sis and grandma sent me to airport. waited for awhile, and we prayed, and i went in to the boarding hall. i tot i'll not cry.. who knows.. when i hug my family, tears start to drop..

Dad, I love you! Mom, I Love you! Bro and sis, Love you guys! Grandma and grandpa, Love you!! Ola, Love you!!!

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after 2hours and 45 minutes flight, i arrived at LCCT. Actz was waiting for me there.. :) I was happy to see him, but at the same time, dare not to look at him. the special feeling comes again~~ haha

special night~

7 Sept '08 Sunday

This morning, mom wake me up at 7:15am to get prepared for Sunday service. Mom made Tuna with Cheese in Burger bread. Usually, there's no breakfast in a Sunday morning. :)
I love the songs sang today. They're very meaningful and touching. After service, new friends that me and Amos made during the Friday young adult cell group came to talk with us. They invited us for lunch but we need to accompany our family. The girl which i thk was quite pretty praised me. She said "you look pretty!" Praising one could make him/her happy. hehe~~

Before lunch at the Sabindo's da pai dang, we went to a shop which sell lotsa hair care products to buy hair oil, so that i can bring it to UK. It costs me RM100!!! Mom said she'll give me the money another day.. hiak hiak hiak~~

when we get home, me and Melissa went up to our room as soon as possible to watch the drama (sou shen zhuan). hehe.. then she took a nap and went to tuition again. 4pm something, Peei came to fetch me for a drink at VedaBlu. The day before, she msg me and said "hey, leaving soon, should be accompanying family right? Can give me some time o not 2moro? if not, also nvm, we'll meet in UK." Dunno why, it was a bit touching cuz.. i don't know how to explain but the "can give me some time o not..."

At night, dad called and ask whether i wanna eat AVOCADO~~ hehe.. he bought four big big round roung avocado... hehe but it's not ready to eat yet.

At night, i help sasa to do her face again~~ she said.. " jie jie, faster help me to plug out those blackheads, u're leaving tmr!!" hhee..Love her so so much.

Dear, though I'm not physically by ur side, you know my heart is by ur side der, rite?

I love you so much... and i pray tat you'll have a happy and blessed year of ur 22nd year of life.

Hope you like this video i made.. :)

I went to Pavilion alone today, to buy Actz's birthday present. I bought the Air Jordan XX3 (4c size) for him cuz he's a big big fan of AJ. he wanted to use it as a key chain... :)
(he was having his exam that time, that's why i can have the time to sneak out to get a present for him!)

I didn't want to let him know actually, but.. sigh.. I juz couldn't help to show him!!! When we get home, he surfed e-bay and looked at AJ sneakers and i, having told myself not to show him before his birthday, have then showed it to him!!!! Gosh... I don't understand why am I like that!!!! Luckily, he is those kind of person that doesn't really mind to receive his birthday present earlier and has always told me that if I show him earlier, I made him happy for a few days more out of his entire life... Lol~~~

And now, he has 5 AJ sneakers ( 4 adult size and 1 children size + another 2 which is not within the AJ series, but is still AJ shoes... (he never wants to wear the 4 though)

tmr, we'll go to tunehotel cuz my bro is coming back to m'sia. *weeeee*
Actz is having an 8am exam tmr.. it's soooooooooooooooooo freaking early.. i don't know what time is he going to wake up... lol..

*we had Domino's pizza for dinner AGAIN~~*

My Brother and Sister.

Siblings can be sweet sometimes,
and not so sweet other times.
They can be silly and fun,
or serious and demanding.
They can be happy and easygoing;
or a bit grumpy and hardheaded.

But whatever words you use to describe them,
you can never really capture their true spirit.
Their true spirit is found in their sensitive and caring feelings
that are there when you need them.
That's just the way siblings are!

Dear Amos and Melissa,
I hope the next time you stop and think of me,
you'll remember how much i care about you,
and know that we'll always be close;
we'll always have each other.

I Love You, My Beloved bro & sis!!

Late May and Early June

I was watching a taiwan drama named "Fated To Love You" these few days. It was quite nice... i found out this drama during my exam and was thinking to watch it after my exam. I watch it from youtube, but, they'd only uploaded until episode 12. :(
I wish to watch the following episodes a.s.a.p cuz, i really wish to know wat happened next!!!

Last week, i was alone at home one afternoon. It rains that day, and the thunder was very load. I was chatting wif my lil' sis in MSN and i told her that it's raining very heavily out there, and thunder was very laud. Immediately, she call me thru skype. and she talked wif me.. ask me not to be afraid.. :) luckily i got my sis to acc n talk wif me.. :) She was also on holiday... unfortunately, i din go back. i din know that she will also be on holiday after my exam. She said she miss me.. and she said mom told her that i wanna acc my Actz... hrm.. i dun want her to think so.. i'm afraid that she might thks that i dun love her... IT'S NOT TRUE!!! I love her so so so dearly...

We opened our own NEOPETS account... mine is bubble_angel05 and sasa's is honeyangel96... I helped her to gain her neopoints sometimes, and 1 day, i receieved her offline message, saying that, 'sis, thanks for helping me to gain my NP again, I love u always... Muacks"... I was so touched... I love u, too sis..

I wanted to buy Actz the Air Jordan T-shirt as his b'day present at 1u's Nike shop. But the stupid idiot shopkeeper ruined my plan!!! I asked her to keep the shirt for me and i'll come and pay for it later... She's so F***ing stupid and keep asking me why why why... If cannot keep then juz say cannot reserve lar.. you don't have the right to ask me, your customer where are they going if they're not willing to tell you, isn't it??? but that stupid malay girl, keep asking where am i going, i say.. if cannot reserve then juz forget about it...

she asked and asked and asked "where r u going, huh?? where r u going?" wat the hell is this stupid person doing??!!?!?! I really wanna slap her and aske her to SHUT UP!!!! i was planning to give Actz a surprise and now.... well... thanks for wat this stupid malay girl had done.. she asked until Actz came out and still keep asking.. Malay... Malay.. no 'coconut'... sigh..no matter how much u hated them, you still hafta face them no matter where you go, as long as you're in malaysia.

on the other hand... i wonder... since when... my eyes cannot "kill" ppl anymore? i tot my eyes were fierce enuf to shut her mouth up??? (P/S : cuz those frens who knows me, they always says that the way i look at ppl when i'm angry will really kill ppl...)

The worse thing is, in fact, in Malaysia, you don't really have the privilege of 'freedom of speech'... if not... I really can't imagine how many chinese will voice up their grievances about the "darker skin and brainless ppl".

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Changes...

since the day he shouted at me, i noticed changes in him.
perhaps, it might be the problem in me. everytime when he start to talk louder, the picture of that day will dash across my mind. i dunno why, but i'm afraid. i dunnno what i'm afraid of, but i'm juz feel that, he started to change. attitude.

I prefer the old him. i understand that, there are things that u can start all over again, but there are also things that no matter how hard u work to compensate it, it juz couldn't work.

juz now, i hugged him. he told me to greet his mom for mother's day. so i told him that my phone cannot type chinese word and he say juz a few english words his mom can still understand. but i dun have his mom's phone number. so i juz use his phone to type, in english. He asked why do i wanna use english seems i'm using his phone to send. I should've used chinese. Isn't it the same thing? I mean, if u say that ur mom can understand a few english word, what's the big deal if i use the phone to send the message in english? He said that i'm stupid and started to be impatient.

He's no longer tolerating and patient. Does it mean that, something has changed? Yea, perhaps...

I love You, my Leong Leong Moi... but not the recent one. Not the matter of tolerating your "new attitude", but, i'm afraid something would change permanently, once you'd adapted to it.

I'm not angry cuz u didn't apologize, i'm not crying cuz u made me angry...
but i'm sad cuz u'd somehow changed.

If you'd changed, who else can i talk to? if we'd changed, will the great and immortal memories keep our distance away?

I can't afford to lose you as a person i love.
However, it's more difficult for me to believe and accept that changes will do us apart.

I told myself that i should let go, so that we can at least remain friends.
But can I? Can i really turn myself away from you?

We'll both change, perhaps I should've expected it.

2May'08

It wasn't a happy day. :(
i woke up very early in the morning to get to 8am's class. (for me it's very early)
Ms. Vilmah let us see our assignment marks n, praise the lord, I get 13/20... (my frens get 9/20..). i was happy in fact, but then, some people who couldn't get a higher was a bit jealous i guess.

As these 2 weeks are revision weeks, so, what i'm trying to say is, revision= revising the thgs that u know, rite? i juz couldn't understand, even if u can't read the lecturer's handwriting, for god's sake u would've know what's the particular section is about, isn't it? But there's juz somebody, the somebody, that couldn't at least use some common sense to figure out what's the word. Well, being too busy-body, I generously tell the "somebody" what's the word and what's the section about.

Consequently, i was criticized to be a person who knows the lecturer's mind.... and..."oh.. no wonder you are able to get a high mark for your assignment lar... cuz u can read the lecturer's mind and know the question.. we can't read the lecturer's mind and don't have the question, that's why we couldn't get high mark...."
Duh~~~ excuse me, do u even know what the craps are you talking about?!!?? the assignment question is the same for all the students, what do u mean by i can read the lecturer mind and know what's the question she wants? so stupid.. if I'm the only one who knows the question, then, where the hell is your 9 marks come from?? isn't it funny? how many assignments have u done in these 1 1/2 year and until now you still can't figure out how to score well? let me tell you, it's not by doing it 1 day before you hafta pass it up and doing it without referring to articles, OK?

Come on, wake up, fren~~(fren???) stop sleeping in the class and waste your papers by drawing out your dreams on it.... stop complaining that the small lil' table can't let you sleep well... do you even know where's the place to sleep? it's your room and bed, not the classroom and the table..

Stop calling me "gan si dui" (dare to die) juz because i'm hardworking and attend more tutorials than you guys.. who's the one who dares to die, you should know it clearly deep inside your heart, isn't it?? well, i don't blame you, cuz i know that, instead of telling what they're thinking inside their hearts, girls always tell the different story.. Nvm, it's ok... i understand.. juz that i don't like it when you talks about me.. i don't like my name being mentioned by YOU!!!!!

Oh yea, tell you what... My EQ is not as high as u expect it to be, so you better watch out for the words that come out from your god xxxx mouth.

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at home, i quarrelled with him. this is the 1st time he was so angry... never see him so so so angry but i know what had made him so mad. I'm the stupid person that speaks of stupid words that made him so hurt!!!!!! He was sad, i knew it. i shouldn't be so mean... i shouldn't use those words. when he shouted at me, i see ain't the anger, but the sorrow that he had deep inside his little hearts that cares for me a lot.

I'm so so so sorry, dear...I'm really sorry.

He told me that, every time when i scold him, the thing that appears in his mind is--- luckily she's not my wife. or i'll hafta tolerate her bad temper for the rest of my life. (I was hurt, when i heard him say so). Last time, he told me that, when i get angry, he will be afraid that what will others think about me rather than feeling that i embarrasses him.. He don't wan them to think that his girlfriend is very fierce.
He'd warned me as well, that i shouldn't continue to behave this way cuz... yea... i know why...:(

i wrote him a letter... quite long..but he din read it until i woke up..
he came to hug me, and the hug reliefs my fear for losing him...
Thanks dear, for tolerating so much, for loving me so much.

He said :"it was my fault for couldn't stand my bad temper I've chosen you, so i should tolerate with you, accept you for the way you are."
(it was actually my fault for making you sad. Please don't blame it on yourself.)

I love you, dear.. though i didn't mean to hurt you, i shouldn't hv hurt you.

P/S: Words are very powerful. The words you speak can affect the life of another individual. Choose the words and think it twice before you spell it out.